Hi there. I realize its been wayyyyy to long since I’ve simmed and even thought about my sim projects.
I started chemotherapy on 4/27 and unfortunately, had a very bad reaction because I developed an infection. That meant I had to be admitted to the hospital because infections and chemo are a very bad combo. So I was in the hospital for three days and then I was having trouble with sleeping and withdrawing from school because there was no way I could finish the semester on a good note. Very frustrating.
Then, this past week I went to visit my mom because my dad’s side of the family is too overbearing. They only seem to focus on the negative side of this disease and it makes them worry, which makes me anxious and emotional. Spending mother’s day with my mom and a few days with her was peaceful and relaxing. But, of course this past weekend I had to run to the ER due to new symptoms that came up that I need to monitor.
Then today, my second cycle of chemo got rescheduled because my white blood cells were too low, so that was a long day haha but I did have a good day finally. I seem to have really good days, but then I have those bad days. But, I’m hoping to get a lot of simming done this week! I’ve been working on the next installment of the simself legacy and couldn’t be happier 🙂Plus, its something positive in my life and can’t focus on the negative as I’ve had to repeat to many of my family members. I’m hoping to be around a little more now.
Hey guys 🙂 I thought I would let everyone know that I am doing extremely well. My surgical healing is going better than expected, but still a long recovery. About three weeks ago I got rid of the machine I was attached to for healing my wound, and since been backing it with gauze and tape. Its truly amazing to see the healing process, the wound is closer to being fully healed, but another few weeks I imagine.
I returned back to school about two weeks ago, so been very busy catching up on the month and half I missed, but I seem to find plenty of time to sim still? Haha I’m finding it hard to get into college mode now. But, I’m confident I can pass this semester like I wanted to. Will just be very busy.
I also am supposed to start chemo this coming week. Good thing is I won’t have to lose my hair this time. Seems like a small victory in my eyes. But, my chemo will be spread out among 6 months roughly. I wanted to let you know that an update for this legacy is coming soon! I just wrote the next chapter for it and plan on (hopefully) writing two more chapters of it so I can just play and write then.
Thank you for the support 🙂 Greatly appreciated.
Back again 🙂 I’m doing pretty good getting these updates out haha, which this generation is going to be longer than Meri’s just an fyi. But, I feel like just a few chapters I’ll be finishing it up, hard to believe considering its been a year since this generation started. This chapter is relatively long, but no way I could break it up into two parts. I’d say its a fair amount of dialogue instead of narration.
Hmm not sure what else to mention. Oh! This will be the last chapter for awhile because I’m itching to switch sim families, and there’s a generation I have yet to even start in one family haha. Plus, I need a break from plotty sim playing.
Things to note:
1. Profanity may be used
2. Full moon decided to come out when I didn’t want it to, so lighting is a bit weird towards the end, I attempted to deal with it the best I could.
3. POV will shift in this chapter, and will be noted.
“What do you think the doctor wants to talk to you about so last minute?” Straw asked
“Honestly I have no idea. I passed all of my evaluations, and there’s nothings seriously wrong with me physically or internally, at least nothing serious that I know. Probably give me a pep talk about how I should talk to someone through my problems.” I speculated
She did have a point. What did they want to talk to me about? They told I could be discharged an hour ago. I hope everything is alright or they don’t bring one of those child-like psychologists who talks to me like I’m a child. I was just as baffled as her. That was until the nurse came in.
“Ms. Clementine Moscato?” she asked
“So everything is alright, and you are ready to be discharged, we just have one final thing to discuss. After running those blood and urine samples we took from you, it turns out you are about four weeks pregnant. Congratulations on the new addition to your life. The doctor has scheduled some prenatal appointments for you so you can get up to date on the pregnancy and know what to expect. Otherwise, you are free to go.”
“Ww-what? Me? Pregnant?” my eyes widened with each reiterated word
No. I can’t be. Couldn’t be. My worst fear just came true. I’m carrying half of my rapist inside of me. No matter what I do, I can’t be free from his clutch. I broke down right then and there. The tears just started to fall from my eyes, and I quickly covered my face, trying to hide my sobs from the two women standing in front me of me.
“This….this can’t be happening.” I cried
“And you’re for certain she’s with child?” Straw chimed in
I could hear the disappointment in her voice, as she said “with child”. I was too ashamed to even look at her as I hung my head low with shame. A poor college student who went and got herself pregnant. I’m sure that’s what she’s thinking. I could feel her eyes on me, just waiting to say something to me.
However, I wasn’t expecting to be railroaded when I was finally was discharged and home once again. Just when I thought I repaired my relationships, it seems they were about to fall apart all over again.
“I can’t believe you Clementine! I cannot believe you! I swear on my berry sweet mother that you better not have tried that because you are now pregnant.” she immediately started to scream at me
“No. Never. I didn’t do any of this because I’m pregnant. I swear! I didn’t even know until the nurse told me today!” I drew back, trying to explain myself
“Oh do not feed me that shit Clementine. You wanted our pity party for you because you had a hunch you were pregnant and instead of taking responsibility for your actions and the outcomes. You make me sick. Here we are rushing to your aide, but you’ve been playing us the whole time.”
“How can you say that Strawberry? Do you really think I knew I was pregnant. I had no idea. Didn’t you see the shock I was in?”
“Whoa, ladies whats all the yelling about? I thought you guys mended your relationship?” Almond cut in
“Oh so did I. Until she pulls this shady shit on me. Go ahead Clemmy, tell Almond how you tried to drown yourself due to the fact of a pregnancy.” Straw bellowed
After ranting about supposed actions and announcing my pregnancy to the world, she eventually walked off and left, slamming the door behind her. So much for discretion.
“Is that true Clementine?”
“Of course not Almond. I would never endanger the life of someone else. Besides, I just found out I’m pregnant today before I left the hospital. How was I supposed to know?” I clarified
“Well, all I have to say is it better not be true. In fact, hearing you’re pregnant is a shock itself. But, no child deserves a mother who won’t take her obvious actions to heart and as suggested, take responsibility. I hope for your sake, and your unborn’s child’s sake, that won’t be you. ” he warned
Then just as the other berry, whom I thought was my friend, he walked off. Once again, I felt helpless. I don’t know why no one was believing me. I would never hurt someone else’s life. Never. Even if, I don’t agree with how this child was conceived or despise its’ father. I felt a frown slowly form, once again I’m a alone with no one to turn to. They don’t understand, this wasn’t a choice.
But, I’m sure if they knew the truth they would tell me I didn’t even try to tell them.
I decided I’d go somewhere, where I can usually think clearly and think in silence. No, I wasn’t going to the beach either. I went to the library instead. You’re probably thinking that’s a bad choice, because this is where I met my rapist but he can’t take this place away from me. I won’t let him. This is my sanctuary and I’m going to fight to keep it. It was starting to get late, but I didn’t care. The library was open twenty-four hours here and that meant not a lot of people would be there. I just wanted to sit there, and think about everything that’s lead up to this point.
If I wouldn’t of came to the library that night, I probably would have never met him. But, nope. I just had to have the urge to read in silence. I couldn’t of just read at home. That’s too easy. This could of all been prevented if I would of just stayed home.
Just one small mistake lead up to this. That’s when I started to feel my belly, and try to visualize being a mother and the growing baby inside me. I’m going to be a mom. Never thought I’d hear those words. I didn’t even plan on having a family. But, here we are. I am pregnant with my attacker’s child, and a part of him is inside me. At least for nine months, then a part of him is combined with me and is now in the form a berry. An innocent baby who has to grow up without a father, and will probably never know him because of the monster he is.
How am I going to do this? I can barely take care of myself. I’m falling apart at the seams as it is. Admitting defeat before I even become a mom made me upset. This child doesn’t deserve this kind of life or upbringing, but now its their fate. There’s no way I’m going to be able to single parent someone who reminds me of someone who destroyed my whole life.
“Its impossible.” I sobbed to myself
“This can’t be done. I can’t help raise this child. What if I’m a horrible mom.”
I was just finishing some research for my final projects, when someone was crying hysterically on the second floor of the library. I tried to ignore her, but I mean this is a library? Go cry at home, some of us actually use this place to study.
Of course, that was until I got off the computer and saw who this woman was. It was Clementine. She was Almond’s friend, the one I met and was actually, quite rude to. I started to walk towards her, but then stopped to awkwardly elude her. Should I go talk to her? What if she hates me and wishes to never see me again. I mean, I basically told her off and she looks in distress already. But, then again….Almond did tell me about her recent shortcomings, about how she tried to submerge herself under water. So I should go talk to her, make sure she’s okay.
During my sob fest, I heard someone else on the floor, but I ignored them. Until I see feet standing next to me. I recognized her feet, it was Elixir? What is she doing here?
“Elixir? What are you doing here?” I sniffled
“I came to see if you were alright, since I could hear you crying.” she replied
Elixir? Coming to see if I’m alright? That’s surprising considering she despises me as being Almond’s friend. But, at least she’s here and I can maybe talk to someone, if my conscious lets me.
“Soo, are you alright? Crying at midnight, in a library usually isn’t a good sign.”
I wasn’t sure if she actually knew about what was going on with me or not, but I decided to lie.
“Oh I’m alright, just a little emotional these days is all. Sorry for bothering you.”
“Yeah, I don’t mean to pry or sound rude but, you were crying as if someone died, and as I mentioned in the library. Plus, Almond told me about the problems you’ve been facing lately. I don’t think you’re okay Clementine.” she pointed out
She was right. I’m not okay. I’ve been sexually violated by someone I trusted, tried to kill myself and now am carrying his baby. I’m harboring too much guilt and stress. I can’t hold this in any longer.
“No, you’re right. I’m in horrible condition. My life has been ripped from me for the past month. First, I meet someone I thought I could trust, but only ended up being betrayed.” I wailed
“What? How did they betray you?”
“He, he, “
“He what Clementine. Please, tell me so I can help you.” she pleaded
“He raped me, and now I’m pregnant with his child. I don’t think I can handle much more.” I sobbed
As I was wiping away tears from my eyes, I could tell Elixir wasn’t sure how to respond to that kind of news. But, a huge sigh of relief has been lifted from my chest. I feel like I can breathe again, knowing someone finally knows. But, now I had to really explain. I just hope I’m ready for that.
“Uh..I’m sorry, I’m not sure what to say Clementine.”
“Do you want to tell me more about this man though. It sounds like you’ve been keeping this a secret for a long time. I don’t want to push you, but I can tell you’re already feeling some relief.” she said
“Um. Yeah, I can try to. You’re the first person I told, so I’m not sure how open I’ll be.”
“That’s okay. Start off small. Who is he?”
“His name is Choc Bean, I met him here actually. At the library. That’s when he asked me out, and we had a great time. He was funny, classy and smart. I couldn’t believe a man like him would want to go out with me actually.” I started
“By the third date, we went to a movie and he was walking me home because it was dark out. A night like tonight. We were walking on the path behind the house, and his attitude changed. He was more demanding and was curious about my personal history with men. I told him that wasn’t important and I didn’t want to tell him. He then started to joke about how I’ve probably never been with a man and then he forced himself on me. I told him no, repeatedly. And I mean repeatedly.”
“I believe you Clementine. No means no.” she soothed
“And now, now, I’m pregnant and have no idea how I’m going to raise a child that was conceived in the worst way possible. Or the fact he or she will share DNA with that horrible man.” I started to cry again
“Hey, don’t cry Clementine. After telling me what you just went through, you’re strong enough to keep your head up still. You will make it through this, its just going to be a long road and as you’ve probably come to know, an emotional one too. Here, let’s sit down.” she reassured
“Are you going to go through the pregnancy then?”
“Well, every child deserves life so of course I am. But, then again I’m torn between how I”m going to parent a child who will remind me of my rapist. What if my son or daughter ends up looking just like him. Plus, what if they ask about their father? There’s a lot of unanswered questions that need to be concerned. Plus, I’m going to need a lot of support which I don’t have right now.” I explained
“Even though we aren’t exactly friends yet, I want you to know I’ll support here. This wasn’t your choice. I’m sure if you told Almond and Strawberry they will behind you too.” she smiled
“I don’t know about that. Straw was there when they told me I was pregnant, and she thinks I tried to commit suicide because of this baby. But, I had no idea I was pregnant, and I would never endanger someone else’s life. Then she went and blew it all up to Almond, and I think he fears the same thing. So, they aren’t exactly happy with me.”
“What? That’s ridiculous. That berry of a woman had the audacity to say that to you. And Almond believed her? Almond needs to be talked to then. They both should know that wouldn’t be like you. I can even tell.”
Its strange how much better I felt telling Elixir about what happened to me. For someone to just listen has you tell her details that were humiliating and inappropriate, it meant a lot. I’m glad she was here tonight. Having someone hear me out with no judgement. Especially since we didn’t start off on the right foot. I’m glad I built up the courage to come clean. I feel like, for the first time in this past month, everything will be okay as they’ve been telling me.
“Listen, your baby may share half of its’ DNA with its berryhole of a father, but you’re the one who’s going to carry this baby to term, and be there when they’re welcomed into the world. That’s what makes a parent. Your baby will love you unconditionally, as I’m sure you will him or her. I think you’ll be a great mom, even if you have no idea what you’re doing.” she pulled me into a hug
“Thanks. I really needed this. You have no idea how much guilt I’ve been keeping inside.” I let out a small smile
“You’re welcome, but you need to tell Strawberry and Almond. If they knew the truth, they wouldn’t of acted like they did. The more you share, the better you’ll feel. As painful as that sounds. I’ll be there for you when you decide to tell them.”
I think…I think I’m finally going to be saved.
Elixir Rush Parfait is provided by alfalfalegacy/Minty. Thank you for letting me borrow her 🙂 I’m sorry it took so long for her part to come into play though!
That was Chapter Eight 🙂 I think this is a chapter a lot of readers were hoping for. I’m going to take a little break from The Moscato’s though, so enjoy the four updates while they lasted haha. Thanks for reading and commenting.
Hello hello! Part Two is finally here! 🙂 Part One got such great reviews! and I wanted to thank you all for your kind words! I really appreciate it! I hope Part Two will measure up haha, its much longer than part one and did not plan on that, so I apologize ahead of time. I’m more excited for the next chapter haha because it will be another one of those chapters I think you guys will like.
As usual some things to note haha
1. Part Two is mainly conversation, less narrating. It was hard to convey facial expressions/conversation in little pictures so I got a little overboard.
2. I don’t believe any profanity is used, but if there’s a small chance you’ve been warned.
3. There are some outfit changes that look weird and screw up the shot, but please try to ignore the green shirt you’ll see Clemmy in for two shots. Its annoying I know.
4. There is a puddle of water in one picture, the sink just happened to break at that moment and was too lazy to move the sim to a different room. Just ignore lol.
5. POV will shift in this update, and will be noted throughout. But, just so you’re aware of the change. We will start off with Clementine’s POV as usual.
I started to tousle around, just awaking from a deep slumber that felt like years. I could tell I wasn’t in my own bed because of how uncomfortable I was. I slowly kicked my legs around to change positions and slowly open my eyes. The room I was in was extremely bright and pure white. “I’m in the hospital I bet” I told myself.
Sure enough I looked to the left of me and there were three chairs for visitors to sit at, and to the right a small table with a fresh flower gently suspended in a vase. That’s when I was alarmed by two people talking far off in the distance. I glanced over by the door, and it was Almond talking to a nurse. I could really make out what they were saying, but I imagine it was about my status or their conclusions of me. Made me cringe that they were talking about me without me knowing or even me being awake.
“We gave her a sedative so she could sleep. Her body seemed to be dehydrated and like she hasn’t slept in awhile. She should be waking up anytime now.” the nurse stated
I slowly got up and changed into clothes that were laid out next to my bed. Seems Almond has been looking after me since being admitted. I slowly leaned in to listen to their conversation, curious to what their prognosis is. Almond seemed to just nod in acknowledgement of the nurse’s statements.
“Also, we’re going to keep her overnight a few days for a clinical observation. This is clearly a suicide attempt and we want to make sure she’s not clinically depressed and has the right mindset for her own health and safety.”
“Is that really necessary? I mean, I know I haven’t known her that long and she and I aren’t exactly close, but I don’t think she’s a threat to herself.” he inquired
“Mr. Cashew, I’m going to be frank. When someone tries to hurt their own life, there usually is more going on than what meets the eye. Now, since you are not family I can’t tell you any specific details. But, for Clementine’s best interest and the interest of others we are going to observe her behavior and hopefully have her open up to someone. Does that make sense?” the nurse reexplained
“I see. And yes, I understand. Just hard to believe her emotional state would be shaken to its core is all. Sorry for my disbelief.”
That’s when the nurse nodded in agreement to Almond’s words. Great, someone was here with me and I was going to be bombarded with questions. I’m still not prepared for everyone’s ambush. They’re going to mean well, but still. No one can know. Never. My story is so degrading and what if they don’t believe me? I let out a large sigh. That’s when Almond’s head snapped in my direction. Well, here goes Clementine.
“I didn’t realize you were awake.” he looked surprised
“Just enough to hear your conversation with the nurse.” I admitted
“Oh….you heard that?”
“Yeah, but its okay. I was going to eventually.”
“How are you feeling?” he half-smiled
“I’ve been better haha. I’m okay, just feel very weak.” I let out a small laugh
That’s when I stood up and Almond smiled. He must be glad that I’m okay. I’m not entirely sure how I feel about it yet. But, a small part of me is relieved to be breathing.
“How long have I been here?”
“Umm, just a little over twenty-four hours. They knocked you out so you could sleep and not wake up in a panic. Hope you don’t mind.”
I smiled and then looked down at the floor. How do you explain to someone you basically just did try to end your life? Not exactly a conversation starter….then again I wasn’t exactly expecting the next words to come out of Almond’s mouth.
” Clementine, why the berry would you try to end your own life?!” He shouted out of anger and misunderstanding
I started to frown and wince at his hurtful words. Who was he to judge my actions? He didn’t know one thing about my choice and thought pattern at the time. Who does he think he is to be the one looking from the outside in and to automatically judge and demand an answer. I didn’t like his tone on top of that. At this point, I wasn’t interesting in explaining myself to anyone. Even if that meant the usually nice and gentle Almond.
“You wouldn’t understand.” I whispered
That’s when Almond’s demeanor changed. Instead of his lips pouting out and body being tensed up, he sighed with defeat and frowned along with me.
“I may not understand. But, I want to. I want to know why the nicest and sweetest berry I know tried to submerge herself at the beach one rainy day.”
“Please Clementine, I don’t want these so called “professionals” deeming you as a clinically insane berry. I know you aren’t one. There has got to be a reason you tried to drown herself.” he pleaded
What? How does he know-
That’s when I realized it. He was the one I felt around me. Almond is the one who pulled me out of the water that day. He’s the one who admitted me to the hospital…..
That’s when I became embarrassed. I can’t believe he watched me submerge myself in the clear waters of the beach. I felt my body start to tense up. No wonder he was so interested. He actually saw the whole thing, didn’t just hear about it.
“Look, I can’t tell you Almond. I know that’s not what you want to hear, but I can’t.” I stuttered
“Are you sure? I’m no doctor, but talking about what is troubling you is better than keeping it in.” he looked concerned
I am truly grateful he’s this devoted to our friendship, but…
“Look. I know you’re being nice and as my friend you’re concerned, but I’m not ready and don’t want to tell you Almond.”
*sighs* “Okay Clementine. Do you want me to get you some water? “
I nodded. Turning away from him as the tears started to stream down my face. I couldn’t stand to face the horrible crime that was committed against me. I just want to forget about it. But, that’s when Almond turned right around and came up to be again.
“I tried to have Strawberry come see you, but she told me she doesn’t want to see you or talk to you. Did you guys have a fight? Is that why did it?” he interjected
“No. That’s not the reason. Can you please get me that water.” I sobbed
That’s when Almond was on his way out, and then again stopped midway. This time he didn’t turn around, he just turned his head to the side so I could hear him.
“I sure do hope you tell someone Clementine.”
While I was out getting Clementine’s water, I couldn’t help but shake the feeling that something terrible happened to her that lead her to take drastic measures. If she wasn’t going to speak to me, maybe she’d speak to Strawberry. The only problem is apparently they aren’t on speaking terms. I had to find a plan in which Strawberry would come down right away, so I thought I’d text her and just be blunt about Clementine’s situation.
Strawberry. Your best friend Clementine tried to commit suicide yesterday and is admitted in the hospital. She needs you. -Almond
I hated to be frank, but that was the only way Strawberry would even think about coming down.
“Aghh, who is it now?” she mumbled aloud
Strawberry. Your best friend Clementine tried to commit suicide yesterday and is admitted in the hospital. She needs you. -Almond
Strawberry’s eyes widened as she read the horrifying text. Clementine? Suicide?
“Oh my berry.” she covered her mouth in shock
Being in the hospital under surveillance is tiring. Especially when they think you’re going to injure yourself with anything sharp. Never thought I’d be treated like a criminal for dealing with the agony of being a victim. Almond was right. I need to talk about what happened. But, my mouth instantly shut when I think about his face. Its like he has his hands ready to force my lips shut and I’m imprisoned in my own misery. No matter how hard I try to forget, he keeps forcing his way back in.
During the midst of my self-loathing, my hospital room door slowly opened and a familiar face came peering around the oak door. It was Strawberry.
“Hi.” she said quick
I was a little surprised she was here considering we weren’t speaking to one another. But, then I remembered what Almond said. He hopes I confess my deepest secret to someone. Strawberry was the reinforcement. I wasn’t sure how to approach that, but I did have to talk to her and apologize about my behavior.
“Hi.” I whispered, as I slowly got up from the bed
I started to walk towards her, and when we were facing each other a silence fell upon the room. Definitely an awkward meeting between two friends. One just tried to kill herself and the other doesn’t know what to say to soothe that thought.
“How are you holding up?”
“Oh I’m alright, just weak. Oh, and they seem to think I’m clinically insane haha.” I chuckled at myself
“Haha, well glad you aren’t. At least I don’t think you are.” she laughed
“Look, Straw I need to apologize for my behavior a few weeks ago-“
“No, Clemmy. Don’t. You obviously had a lot on your mind and you just took it out on me. Its alright. Please you don’t explain yourself to me.”
“Okay…” I softly replied
“I just hope our fight didn’t lead to you to…..” she started
“What?! Oh no. No. That’s not why I umm…..did what I did. I promise.”
“Then why did you….do what you did?”
“I’m sorry Straw. I know we just cleared up the fight we had, but I can’t. I just can’t tell you the real reason. I want to, but no. ” I declined
“Are you sure Clemmy? You can trust me, you know that right?” she reassured
“I know I can, but I can’t trust myself. This isn’t something I easily admit. I want to tell you, but compelled not to.” I closed my eyes at the dreadful thought
Okay. That’s Part Two. I apologize for the length haha, I even didn’t use like four photos so its shortened some from what I originally thought 🙂 Hope you liked it, can’t say it measures up to Part One though. As I mentioned I’m more excited for Chapter Eight. Its a defining chapter, and I hope you guys like it too! 🙂
Hello hello again! 🙂 I am back with another chapter, but this one is a two-parter, as you’ve been warned. I’m sorry last chapter had such strong themes, and was quite depressing 😦 and fair warning, this chapter isn’t much better….
I’m hoping to get part two done this week too, and hopefully strive for chapter 8 this week, but we’ll see how that goes Lol. Don’t want to get too ambitious. Part one is relatively short, like 25 pics? I’m hoping part two isn’t that long either.
Otherwise, things to note…….
1. Profanity will most likely be used, you’ve been warned.
2. Disregard the unforeseen outfit change Clemmy does when she is in the water/ocean, just pretend she’s wearing her actual clothes lol, I haven’t figured out how to have it so they don’t automatically change in swimwear XD
3. Time also kinda moves a little fast in this chapter….
4. Anddd this chapter doesn’t directly address a strong theme of death, but if you read into it closely and carefully you’ll be able to figure out. If it makes you uncomfortable, or is too much for you, please do not read. I apologize in advance.
And as usual, told from Clementine’s POV, unless stated otherwise.
About a month later:
Um. Yeah. Wow. Its even harder to write it down.
Its….its been a month, since that day. I don’t know,…know how much I can talk about it, but I’ve read its healthy to talk about it, so I’m trying.
Luckily no one was home, when I stumbled in tears through the front door. I slowly shut the door, and collapsed to the floor. I don’t know how long I cried, his face and voice kept ringing in my ears. His hands, and his body. I could still feel all of it. No matter how many showers I’ve taken, and am still taking. I can’t wash him off or out of me. I feel so degraded. I threw out any clothes I wore around him, trying to box away his memory. But, everyday his sly and sneaky smile creeps into my mind. The first few weeks I would wake up in a cold sweat and breathing frantically. I had to lie to everyone telling them it was just a bad dream. But, in reality it wasn’t just a dream. It was a true nightmare.
I tried keeping busy, by changing my clothes and look so I wasn’t reminded of what he “liked”, working on my novel, and even looking online for information. But….nothing worked. I couldn’t write about a strong female character when my soul has been shattered into tiny pieces. I didn’t have the guts to admit what happened, even to a stranger online, and changing my clothes didn’t help either. He had me wrapped around this twisted game, and I was running around blindly with no way out.
Other days, the good days as I call them, my body just becomes lethargic and I lay around everywhere mopping in self-pity. I call these good days because instead of hysterically crying and tearing myself at the seams, I’m just feeling sorry for myself and am more somber.
Yesterday was one of the hardest days I had, and I’m still not quite recovered from it. I was sorta waiting for how long someone would realize I haven’t really been myself for this past month. I haven’t talked to anyone in the house, especially Straw. I did’t think it would take her this long to realize I didn’t gush over my so-called date, but I think she was busy winning over some new boytoy. Which is fine. I needed the distraction. I was worried she was going to ask me the morning after, but I managed to elude her. That was until yesterday.
“Hey hey, Ms. Moscato, how did that date go of yours? Its been a month and you haven’t given me any of the juicy ideas yet?!” she came into the room smiling and playfully noted
I quickly cringed at the idea of my “date”. “Yeah, some date. If only you knew.” is what I thought. But, she mustn’t know. No one can know. Would only make things worse. I slowly sighed, and then something snapped. His voice and face came flooding to my mind, and it was like he was right in front of me again. I broke.
“What is it to you?! So what if I didn’t tell you, its my personal life okay!” I screamed
Unfortunately, my tone was hoarse and very serious. The total opposite of what I’m normally like, and Straw could tell. She was very taken back with how I reacted, and wasn’t sure what to do. But, my blow up wasn’t finished yet.
“Whoa, okay, sorry. I was just asking since you seemed-“
“Well just forget about the whole thing. Just forget I told you about him, and how I felt about him. Its not important and you shouldn’t care. Its not your life to worry about, so just stay the berry butt out! “
That’s when I whipped my head around in angst and waited for her to walk way and just forget about the whole conversation and the existence of that berry of a man I mentioned to her. But, the damage was done, and it would take more than an apology to talk to her again.
“Fine. If that’s how you want to be.” she quietly responded
I didn’t say anything, because I was fighting back tears and sobs. She couldn’t see me like that.
“Well when you decide to get rid of the berry foot that’s stuck up your ass, you let me know. Also, when you want to stop being a bitch, apologize and explain yourself, let me know. Otherwise I don’t see any reason to talk to you further if you’re not going to be my friend and accept my friendship. I thought we had trust.”
I didn’t bother establishing eye contact with her, I was too angry, sad and ashamed to look her in the eye. I waited until she stormed out of the house, probably to go blow off steam. I rushed into the bedroom, I couldn’t hold in my feelings any longer. All I could do was cry and let the tears stream down my face.
Great, now I pushed one of my friends away. I didn’t want to, but thinking about him plays with my emotions violently. I either get irate or clinically depressed. I’m on a emotional roller coaster and don’t know how to let people in. Worse yet, I don’t want to let them in. I just want to shut everyone out, and be in the corner by myself.
I just don’t know what to do anymore. I can’t talk about, but I want to open up. But, I can’t. It feels impossible. I can’t walk around with such a burden and heavy heart. I just, I need air. I’m feeling suffocated in this house of people I trust and know but yet, can’t tell them the one thing I know I have to confess.
I need to walk it off and clear my head.
I didn’t care if it was storming out and pouring rain. I found it fitting actually, seems mother nature is feeling what I’m feeling and she somehow understands me. For awhile I just let the rain hit my skin. My skin was still burning from getting so worked up. The cooling sensation felt like a slow cleanse.
I took my time getting there, after all it was all the way on the other side of town. I avoided walking past the university in case someone I know or have made an acquaintance with saw me. Looking at all of the brightly colored houses, and little kids peering outside the window frowning because of the rain. I imagine that they wanted to go play in the rain, but their parents shook their fingers. Oh to be young and innocent. That’s when it was all easy. Being adult makes things complicated. You can be on top of the world one minute, and down in a six foot grave the next. Life was that ride you always wanted to take when you weren’t tall enough, but now that you are, you’re scared for your life and now want to get off as soon as you got on.
When I reached the beach the rain had slowly led up. It was just a drizzle now. I saw an open long chair, and decided to take a seat and gaze into the beautiful scenery. I watched every little ripple form from each water droplet landing o the surface and causing the disturbance. My mother was right, the beach here is beautiful. So peaceful. Reminds me of the real love my parents have for each other. I believe she said that this is where my dad first kissed her or told her he had feelings for her. Such a lovely place.
That’s when I looked at the water rippling around and splashing from some fish shooting out of the water. It made me smile, another organism who is free to swim and live with no betrayal. So liberating. I’m not entirely sure if it was that, or some unnatural force enticed me to get closer to the cold water and the small waves crashing into the beach. But, I wanted a closer look.
I slowly crept up to the shoreline. Staring through the water, looking at the sandy and muddy bottom. I just wanted to stick my feet in and feel how mushy it is….
That’s when I didn’t hesitate, I decided to go for it. I didn’t care if it was raining or cold out. The water was calling my name in little whispers and I obeyed them. I first went knee deep in. It was chilling, but invigorating. I almost had to gasp to catch my breath again. Didn’t expect the clear waters to take me by surprise.
That’s when I wanted to go farther and deeper into the water.
That’s when I slowly started to submerge my body into the clear blue sea, letting the waves hit him and push me every which way. It made me smile, the water felt so dense and cool against my body, as my clothes became drenched in them. It was just as calming as it looked. I couldn’t help but twirl in the water, and swim around some. It was like I was a kid and it was bath time and all the cares in the world didn’t matter. I just had to become master of the sea.
That’s when I floated on my back, and looked up at the sky as more rain droplets kept hitting my face and the water surrounding me. I lifted my hands up to feel the rain hit my palms. That’s when I shut my eyes, taking it all in. It was so peaceful and serene. I didn’t want to open my eyes. I just let the water engulf me whole, and I slowly slide through the water, I only opened up eyes for a moment to see the sky start to darken as I slid further into the water .
As the world around me grew silent, I felt my lips slowly smile. Remembering what life once was, so easy and quiet. I want to get back to that. Maybe this was the only way to do achieve that once again.
Alrighty! That’s Part One! I hope it wasn’t too heart heavy for you as last one was :3 though, this one isn’t much better. I hope I didn’t provoke too many feelings of hurt or negativity, I tried to be subtle about it. I didn’t want to warn you exactly what it was in the beginning because that would of ruined the chapter, but let me know if more of a warning would be appropriate please. Don’t want anyone offended.
Also, I can’t seem to find the sheet where I wrote done the creator of the one pose used I’m sorry! I appreciate whoever created it though! As multiples uses.
I’m not sure when Part Two will be out. As of today and the past three days I haven’t been feeling the best. Not sure if I have a fever or my apartment is just really hot haha, and I haven’t had much of an appetite. Along with that had some lower right abdominal pain….which I know can’t be my ovary since I don’t have the right one anymore, and I’m wondering if its appendicitis since I have three of the symptoms, but I’m discouraged because the pain only comes when I’m laying down and ready to sleep? I think if it was appendicitis it would be constant, so hopefully its not that. Can’t afford that right now, once you have issues with your appendix they just remove it right away, and with school starting a week from today….I don’t think so haha. If anyone thinks its appendicitis let me know haha because a second opinion would be nice. I know i should go to urgent care or ER but I was there oct-dec for abdominal pain and all they told me is that I have “painful periods” which it clearly is not since I’m not on my period, and they just tell me they don’t know what it is. So I’m not chancing it again to be there for 4 hours with no results.
Well its only been about 4 months since our last update…..yeah, I’m very sorry about that. I got caught up with school, having a relationship and other sim projects that were just has neglected. I always put too many projects on my plate, but that’s because I can get bored easily with plotty stories and sometimes you need a break. But, I’m here and plan on updating this legacy for awhile! I’m hoping to get a few chapters out before I switch to a different one 🙂 I’m sorry for the long awaited chapter.
Anywho, there is a lot to mention about this update. First, as for pictures its very short, than usual. Why? Because its going to be more word heavy, this is also one of the major plots of this generation so its an important chapter. Now for the warnings and disclaimers…….
A few NOTES to be aware of:
1. Sim-related violence is displayed and wrote out in this chapter. I would consider it to be graphic, and uncomfortable to many people. Mainly violence against women in this chapter, and it could strike a cord with some people, so please do not read if this makes you uncomfortable or angry.
2. Brings me to the fact that violence is portrayed in this chapter, as well as other STRONG and ADULT themes. If you are not of age to be comfortable with these themes, please, please DO NOT read. I don’t want complaints or people to be offended.
3. Graphic poses will be used to give life to the situation and action. I will credit those creators at the end, but just to note in case it may make you uncomfortable. This is solely for story-telling purposes.
4. Profanity will be used most likely. Again, for character development and story-telling purposes only.
5. Sim nudity or NSFW (Not Suitable For Work) is in this chapter. Nothing too realistic, but its there. Mainly just a shirtless female, and shirtless male. But, important to note if you don’t want to see that while reading.
6. Lastly, I DO NOT condone any kind of violence against any organism on this earth that is unjust. This is a story. This does not reflect my views, and again only for story-telling purposes. I don’t have anything against women, or men. Purely a story, and nothing more.
Now, if I haven’t scared you away, we will begin the chapter. I just want to make sure everyone knows what is expected in this chapter before they dive right in. It may be a story, but these are real situations that could happen to anyone and readers need to be aware.
Oh, and as usual chapter will be told from Clemmy’s POV. Time also seems to pass kinda fast in this chapter. Anddd since I recently downloaded/bought Supernatural a few weeks back I’m still figuring out the best editing for when sims our outside. I don’t use fancy photoshop because I don’t see it necessary, but the sims might seem a little dark and unclear but I did my best to edit without overdoing it.
“So!? Tell me about your date with mr. coffee creamer!” Straw laid on the floor next to me
“Isn’t that kind of personal?” I thought outloud
“What? Nooooo! Girl this is what friends are for! Spill the berry beans to me!”
“Oh my berry Straw. He is the perfect man, every berry girl’s dream guy. “
“Oh really? How so?” she giggled
*swoons* “Ahh he’s just so perfect. He likes to read, I like to read and I write. He’s in the medical field, so he likes to help people. Admirable trait if I do say so myself. He’s just so sweet and caring. He has a sense of humor, thinks I’m funny. I also seem to come out of my shell with him. Most men aren’t capable of that. Its a weird feeling with him. I can just tell he really likes me and I like him.” I swooned lying on the floor, spilling every last detail to her.
“Oh my berry!!! I’m so happy for you Clemmy!”
“Really? You mean it? You think he could be the one?”
“Of course he could be!” she cheered, pulling me into a hug
“Well, I know that being monogamous isn’t really your thing, so I want your honest opinion.” I admitted
“Oh. Well, I have been in relationships before. I just want to have fun for the time being. Plus, I know its important to you and I won’t lie to you. I mean, I would have to admit him to give you my full opinion but let’s not jump to conclusions.” she smiled
“Yeah, don’t need that right now.”
“But, I will say this just because I’m your friend, and a woman. Please be careful okay Clemmy? I’m not saying mr. coffee creamer is-“
“His name is Choc.” I cut in
“Oh, right. That doesn’t mean Choc is a bad guy, but not all guys are good even if they come off being perfect princes. I don’t want to see you get in deep and then have your heart ripped out and stomped on is all. I have your back, but you have to have your own skin too. Please do that for me?” she said
“I don’t know if Choc is really like that Straw. I mean he has got to be the sweetest man alive.”
“Clemmy. I mean it. I’m saying this as your friend, not your mother. Plus, haven’t you been hurt in the past?”
That’s when I reverted back to my sweet, innocent teenage years. Yes, yes I have been hurt before. That led to some of the emotional problems I still battle today. I let people in too easily, and I end up getting hurt one way or another. I was told love, and all I knew was love from that sweet boy and then he ripped it out of my hands like it was nothing.
“Yes, I have. I almost forgot…..I’ll try to be careful.” I half-smiled
About Two Weeks Later:
A few weeks later, it seemed that Choc was all I could think about. I kept seeing his million dollar, milky white smile and his dark, brown eyes everywhere I went. He made it difficult for me to concentrate on my studies and and many creative writing papers that I seemed to have piled up. I wanted to really work on my novel idea more too, but what kind of strong-willed, independent woman falls in love that quickly and that’s what seems to be happening to me as the days slowly go by without speaking to him.
Choc Bean. I found myself repeating his name over and over in my head. Eventually, that lead to Mrs. Clementine Bean. Hmm, has a nice ring doesn’t it Clem? Oh my berry. Its like I’m a teenager all over again, foolishly in love with a man I barely know. But, I couldn’t help it. He was my dream guy, literally. Its too good to be true. But, you know its real when you can’t stop thinking about that one person. He penetrates every thought I have. He’s like that favorite berry candy you can’t seem to resist every time you see it.
It didn’t help that I kept thinking about what Straw told me too. “Be careful”, those two simple words were floating around in my head all week. I wasn’t sure if I should just shrug them off and just go with my heart’s content or if foreshadowing was going to take place and Straw had a way of knowing these things. What if he ended up not being the man I thought he was or want. I don’t want to be that lovestruck girl who gets hurt again.
Later on that day, while I was walking to the kitchen for my fifth cup of coffee, I heard my phone ringing. I quickly set down my mug, and swiped the screen. It was Choc calling. Oh berry.
“Hello?” I said
“Why hello there. Is this the lovely Ms. Moscato I am speaking to?” he chimed
Oh berry he did know how to charm a girl.
“Why yes it is. This is Choc I presume?”
“Haha yes it is. I’m calling to inquire whether you would want to go see a movie with me this upcoming Friday night?”
“Hmm this Friday I might have to check my non-existent social calendar to see if I can make it.” I chuckled
“Haha oh I’m not worth it now? Your lips tell a different story.” he shot back
“Haha you caught my bluff. I would love to go see a movie with you.”
“Great! I’ll pick you up around six-thirty?”
“Sounds like a date.” I smiled
Maybe this will the date where I really decide what my gut is trying to tell me about Choc. I know I can’t wait to see him again, and that cheeky smile of his. I can only hope I’ll have as much fun as last time I was with him.
That Friday Night:
The whole week flew by and next thing I knew it was Friday evening and I was preparing for another amazing date with Choc. At least I think we’re calling it a date. I decided just to be casual the whole time, and take in everything wit ease. I’m not going to worry about whether he’s a good guy or not. Presumed innocent until proven guilty right?
“Well there’s the woman I just have been dying to see all week.” he smiled big
“Haha oh really? Well, here I am.” I smiled back
“Are you ready to go then?”
“Yes. Have you picked a movie out or do you need help deciding?”
“Ohh I think I got it under control” he teased
“Just checking.” I let out a chuckle
Turns out he picked a sci-fi warfare type movie. I was a little surprised. I pictured him taking me to a romance or romantic comedy. It was interesting. A movie about an invasive virus infecting berries and turning them into man-eating carnivores. It was a little scary, but gave us something to talk about shortly after the movie. He’s more of the type for conversation then physical actions. I admire that about him.
“You sure do know how to pick em'” I laughed
“Haha is that a hint of disapproval I sense?” he teased, grabbing my hands
“No of course not. It was interesting, just surprised that’s what you chose.”
“Ahh well I figured since most of our conversations are intellectual and I’ve come to realize you’re very different than most berry women I meet, I wanted to pick that brain of yours. You’re a very intelligent woman Ms. Clementine Moscato, and that I admire.”
“Awe Choc. You’re too sweet.” I gushed
“Not as sweet as you.” he slowly leaned in for a kiss
After he kissed me, he slowly turned and started to walk me home. We weren’t in any hurry, so we kept our pace rather slow. I liked how his hand felt holding mine. It was so warm, and inviting. He knew how to make me feel comfortable and safe with him.
We talked about everything under the berry sun once again. Most about the movie, and how that could potentially tie into our real world. Plus, him having the medical background his perspective was intriguing to listen to. He seems to really enjoy my opinions as well. How could I even think that he is one bad berry? He’s so nice and down to Earth. I don’t know why Straw had to go and say that to me. He’s done nothing to make me think otherwise.
That’s when we decided to take the bike trial that leads right to my backyard. It was romantic in a sense. The moonlight glow on us, the wind slowly blowing the leaves and the crisp air. Reminded me how fast summer is ending. While I was admiring the scenery and the perfect moment we were in, Choc let go of my hand and turned to face me.
“I am curious though, how many lucky guys have you been with?” he let out a small smile
“Why is that important?” I questioned
“I just want to know. You’re such a sweet girl, it must not be that many.”
“That’s kinda private Choc. I don’t really feel comfortable telling you.”
“Awe please? I won’t judge. I’m just a curious fellow.” he stepped closer, smiling wider
“I’m sor-sor-sorry I can’t. You’re making me too uncomfortable. Maybe another time.” I winced
That’s when he stepped closer, cupping my chin in his hands. He slowly lifted my chin up too look at him, and he smiled.
“Well, maybe instead of telling me you could just show me.” he whispered, his voice becoming huskier
I wasn’t sure how to react, I was still really uncomfortable with the topic he wanted to discuss, and I wasn’t sure what he really meant.
“Wha-wha-what do you mean?” I stuttered in confusion
“I mean you could show me how experienced you are with men.”
He slowly moved his hand from holding my chin up, down to my hips, and shifted closer to me. His face inches from mine, looking deep into my eyes. And, how experienced I was? But, I’m not. I don’t. I mean? No. This is too unfamiliar to me and makes me uncomfortable.
It felt like a lifetime with him just staring at me with no emotions and no words. I didn’t know how to react or what to say. That’s when he leaned to kiss me, but I didn’t want that. Or this whole conversation. I pulled away and tried to push him away.
“What, what are you doing Choc? I do not want this. Not now and definitely not here. I told you I am uncomfortable with it still.” my voice quivering
“Its just one little kiss Clementine. Don’t make a big deal out of it.” he mumbled in my shoulder
“No, this is not just a kiss. This clearly means something much more than that and I am not ready for that. I think its best I just go home and we talk about this later.”
“What? You are not leaving. I brought you out for a good time and we are going to finish having a good time.”
His tone had shifted from playful to serious. I didn’t like how it sounded. It scared me, and I just wanted to leave. This was not the man I originally came out with.
(Quick reminder: These are adult themes that are next and graphic images. Please if these make you uncomfortable, do not read. Some sim nudity is displayed as well. Again, for storytelling purposes only. But, please do not look at the pictures or read if you are uncomfortable)
I tried to walk away, but he quickly grabbed my arm and whipped me around, forcing me closer to him.
“You are not going anywhere. You are going to enjoy yourself by yours truly. I want you and I will have you.” he gritted through his teeth, his grip tightening around my arm
I was speechless, and fear was starting to set in. I did not want this. I wanted to say something, but I opened my mouth and nothing came out. my legs started to shake, and I couldn’t stand on my own for much longer.
“Oh? Looks like someone is ready for me too. You do know how to make a man happy Clementine.”
That’s when he forced me to the ground, and climbed ontop of me. He pinned my arms and legs so I couldn’t escape by any means. He tore my clothes off, and undressed himself. I started to close my eyes.
“No! Don’t you dare close your eyes. I want to see the look in your eyes as I give you the night of your life.” he ordered
I just wanted it all to end quickly. I opened my eyes, and tears started to swell up. I didn’t want this. Why me? What did I do?….That’s when he slowly thrust himself into me, I cried with every minute he was pouring himself in me. I wanted it all to end. I wanted to beg him to stop, but my voice was gone. I was so scared I couldn’t say anything. Just emotions. He kept telling me how I was enjoying myself and how lucky I was to have a man like him treat me so well. It seemed to go on forever, until I could see the sun start to come up. That’s when he finished.
“I hope you enjoyed yourself Ms. Moscato. I know I did, and I know you’ll always remember it.”
As he walked off, I started to cry harder. I just wanted to crawl up in a little hole and leave the reality I was forced into. Everything hurt. My body, my feelings and my whole world was just shaken to its core. A man I just trusted betrayed me, and acted as if I wasn’t even worth being a berry. That man violated me in the worst possible way.
He, he raped me.
I am sorry if anyone was offended or uncomfortable. But, I like to make these stories come to life. I hope that all of the warnings I gave were appropriate, and if not, please let me know if I could of said something differently. I apologize if this upset anyone, was not my intention.
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Thank you for reading and waiting four long months, and even until 2015 for this update. I’m hoping chapters and storytelling will be easier as the ideas are flowing now that I got the main plot out.
Yay its here! 🙂 Chapter Five at your service. But, remember this will be the last update for a little bit since I’m switching legacy families. Also to note. The next chapter will bring up very, extreme and adult themes. That’s why I’m giving it a little bit of a break so I can mentally prepare, and do a little more research and also give readers a fair warning and to make you speculate 🙂
Again, its another short chapter like Chapter Four. I predict Chapter Six might be two parts so I went easy this chapter. There shouldn’t be any profanity used either,.
Also, wanted to say thank you to skylarsims for the pose used.
Shall we then?
As soon as I got home from the library and meeting the fellow Choc Bean, I had to quickly tell Strawberry about this since she is my dating g0-to girl. I’ve only dated one person and that was back in high school when it seemed to be easier. Straw has been through it all, and even though it might seem bad, I look at it as she has experience and knows exactly what she wants in a relationship. Whether emotional or physical.
“Soooo I think just got asked out on a date.” I nonchalantly let out
“What?! That sounds great Clemmy!” she busted out with excitement
“Well I said I think. I’m not entirely sure. It could just be a friendly outing too.”
“Wait. With who? You didn’t tell me you had a guy friend you talk to. Keeping things from your friend eh? Or maybe you wanted to keep him all to yourself?
“Uh…what?! No no. I just met him tonight. That’s why I’m telling you now.” I half-smiled
“Oh haha, why didn’t you say so? So who’s this lucky guy. Give me details girl. I need all information to assess the situation.” she teased
“Haha okay, okay. His name is Choc Bean. Not sure if he is from Apple Loosa Pie originally or not. But, he went to college here and graduated last year I believe from graduate school. Err medical school. He is currently doing his clinicals here and he’s hoping to be a top notch surgeon.”
“Oh my berry. You caught a doctor?! Clemmy you have skills! Who knew you had it in you. I hope to berry you agreed to see him?!”
“Well yes. I did. But, should I treat it like a date or two friends casually going out?” I repeated
“A man is asking you out to dinner? Guys don’t do that unless its Almond or they’re attracted to men. You treat it like a date!” she playfully argued
“Oh okay. Good to know. I wasn’t sure….but wait. A date?! I’ve only been on one first date in my life and that was with my ex. Ohmyberry. Things have changed since high school how am I going to do this?”
“Well that’s why you have me?!” she characteristically twirled
“Uhhhh rightttt……..” I narrowed my eyes
“Oh don’t be like that. There can only be one reason you’re telling me all of this. You want my help and advice. Ooh! Can I help you pick out your outfit and do your hair too!?”
“Yes Straw, you can.”
“This is going to be so much fun! Date nights are the best! I can’t wait! When are you guys going out?” she delighted
“I believe next weekend. So you have a week.” I replied
“Challenge accepted. We will make sure you’re date night ready by then.”
That week seem to fly by. Next thing I knew it was Saturday night and Straw was helping me get ready for my “hot date” as she called it. I have to admit, I wasn’t as nervous as I initially was. The night I told Straw about it all, I felt like I was going to pass out the whole time. There was something about him. Choc Bean. Just thinking about him made my heart race. Surprised I didn’t faint the first time we spoke. But, he did put a smile on my face. Like I said, there’s something about him. Its almost like his aura is warm and welcoming. You can tell he’s sincere and genuine.
“I must say, or as they say in England. You do looks smashing Clemmy.” Straw smiled big
“I think you just insulted the whole English culture Straw. But, are you sure?” I frowned, looking myself over
“Would I lie to you?”
“Yes, you would.”
“Point taken. But, trust me. You look great. You look great, but its not overbearing or too flashy. Simple and classy. Men like that, and I know this Choc Bean will too. I can’t believe you had that dress and didn’t tell me.” she described
“Yeah, you’re right. I do look classy. Thanks a lot Straw. I really appreciate it.” I gleamed
“You’re very welcome Clemmy.”
Choc told me that instead of picking me up and having an awkward car ride home, we would just meet at our destination. We agreed on the little bistro in town. Probably because its the only place to really have a date. I took a taxi there, and my heart was starting to beat fast as the car was passing block by block, eventually incing away from the curb that sit in front of the bistro. I saw him immediately through the tinted window. A huge smile came across my face when I saw him look and smile. “Here we go Clemmy.” I told myself. What’s the worst that could happen?…Well besides him not liking me. I just won’t see him again.
“Why hello there fair lady. Nice to see you again.” he smiled
“Haha hi again. Its nice to see you too.” I gushed
“First, and foremost let me say that you look beautiful tonight. Very classy Clementine.”
“Awe thank you Choc. That means a lot.”
“I also have something for you.” he smirked
“Oh? What is it?” I asked
“I bought you some flowers. I noticed you wore yellow to compliment, and I saw these daffodils. They made me think of you and your smile.”
“Oh berry! Choc that is so sweet of you! Thank you so much!”
“You’re very welcome. Shall we enjoy a lovely meal together?” he motioned
“Haha yes, let’s. I’m starved.” I smiled back
The waiter led us to our table to the outdoor patio, and we both sat down with huge smiles on our face. We both were excited to see one another and couldn’t wait to finally “start” the date. During the first few minutes while he was perusing the menu I couldn’t help but look at him and study his features. Then it hit me. I’m. on an actual date. A smile came across my face. Here sat a man, who truly liked me for who I was and enjoyed listening to what I had to say. He liked my intelligence and didn’t care or use me just for my looks. I could only hope the rest of the date goes this well.
“How did you get to be an avid reader?” I blurted out
“Haha you don’t beat around the bush do you? You want to know all there is don’t you? Haha. Hmm, I’d have to blame my mother for that one. Since my dad was busy working all the time, and she was forced to be a stay at home mom. She feared we wouldn’t be educated since she was forced to homeschool us. Please don’t ask what I mean by that. Anyway, my mom wanted to make sure we received the the same education as the kids who went to public school so she made sure there was a lot of reading material around the house. Both current events and as many genres she could find. Plus, playing with your siblings can get old after awhile especially when you get older so I resorted to reading.” he explained
I didn’t say anything right away since I was taking in all the information he just presented. I must of been looking at him intently because finally he broke the silence and looked concerned.
“It doesn’t sound glamorous I know. But, I’m grateful for my family and I’m glad they’ve made me who I am today. What about you?”
“My family life wasn’t any better. I have two older brothers who kept my parents busy with their shenanigans. Since I’m the youngest and was self-sufficient my parents didn’t really worry about me until I was ready to move of course. So to escape the chaos from my parents and brothers always budding heads, I read to to escape the actual reality I was living. Helped develop my imagination too.” I shyly admitted
“Well sounds like a good thing since it helped you choose a career path. Family can teach us so much can’t it? It really shapes you. That part of psychology has always intrigued me. But, I’m a much better surgeon haha.” he joked
“Haha yeah, family is something else like you said. I’m always curious about how others grew up since you can tell a lot about them just from knowing their family. Both bad and good.”
We sat there an talked for over an hour. Anything and everything that came to mind, we discussed it. We laughed, had serious talks and let our curiosity get the best of us. Eventually, the bistro was starting to close up their dinner hour and they notified us of the make your own drink bar they have set up for the evening hours. Choc’s eyes lit up and he looked at me for approval to go make a drink. I nodded and laughed at his silliness.
“Can I make you a drink fair lady?” he asked with a cheeky smile
“Haha sure, why not. One can’t hurt.” I smiled
“Awe just one? Sounds like you might need more than one.”
“No that’s quite alright. I’m not much of a drinker. I usually have one and I’m good.”
“I like that. Beautiful and modest. That’s hard to find these days.” he winked
“Consider yourself lucky then? I let out a chuckle
“And a sense of humor?! I might as well be doomed!”
“Haha oh boy, you better get out while you still can!”
” I’m really glad you agreed to come out with me.” he whispered pulling me in for a hug
“Awe, I’m glad you asked. I’m having a really good time with you.” I whispered back
“So you wouldn’t mind if I did this then?”
Oh berry. Did this berry of a man just kiss me? His lips and touch is so soft. I didn’t want it to end. I could feel both of our lips, trickling smiles at the same time. It was sweet. He was sweet. I didn’t want our lips to stop being locked. He made me feel confident and happy. I haven’t felt that way for a long time. When he pulled away, all my mind could think about was the hope of him kissing me again and the fact that I wanted to see him again.
He offered to walk me home since it was starting to get late and dark out. We didn’t talk much on the way there. We let our body language do all the talking. Holding hands, giving me light kisses and grabbing his arm tightly. It was a great ending to a wonderful night. Before he walked me to the door, he grabbed both of my hands and swung them around.
“So, am I going to see you again?” he chimed
“Hehe well I certainly hope so. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t have fun tonight.” I giggled
“That’s what I like to hear haha.”
“You sure are something else aren’t you?”
That’s when he kissed me again. Longer and deeper this time. He slowly pulled away with his famous smirk.
“I don’t know, you tell me.” he quietly said
I didn’t say anything. Instead I kissed his cheek and waved goodbye. I don’t know how long I can wait until we see each other again. I hope it won’t be too long.
That’s it for this chapter! Hope you enjoyed 🙂 As mentioned, more drama/action happens in next chapter so be prepared!