Hello hello! Part Two is finally here! 🙂 Part One got such great reviews! and I wanted to thank you all for your kind words! I really appreciate it! I hope Part Two will measure up haha, its much longer than part one and did not plan on that, so I apologize ahead of time. I’m more excited for the next chapter haha because it will be another one of those chapters I think you guys will like.
As usual some things to note haha
1. Part Two is mainly conversation, less narrating. It was hard to convey facial expressions/conversation in little pictures so I got a little overboard.
2. I don’t believe any profanity is used, but if there’s a small chance you’ve been warned.
3. There are some outfit changes that look weird and screw up the shot, but please try to ignore the green shirt you’ll see Clemmy in for two shots. Its annoying I know.
4. There is a puddle of water in one picture, the sink just happened to break at that moment and was too lazy to move the sim to a different room. Just ignore lol.
5. POV will shift in this update, and will be noted throughout. But, just so you’re aware of the change. We will start off with Clementine’s POV as usual.
I started to tousle around, just awaking from a deep slumber that felt like years. I could tell I wasn’t in my own bed because of how uncomfortable I was. I slowly kicked my legs around to change positions and slowly open my eyes. The room I was in was extremely bright and pure white. “I’m in the hospital I bet” I told myself.
Sure enough I looked to the left of me and there were three chairs for visitors to sit at, and to the right a small table with a fresh flower gently suspended in a vase. That’s when I was alarmed by two people talking far off in the distance. I glanced over by the door, and it was Almond talking to a nurse. I could really make out what they were saying, but I imagine it was about my status or their conclusions of me. Made me cringe that they were talking about me without me knowing or even me being awake.
“We gave her a sedative so she could sleep. Her body seemed to be dehydrated and like she hasn’t slept in awhile. She should be waking up anytime now.” the nurse stated
I slowly got up and changed into clothes that were laid out next to my bed. Seems Almond has been looking after me since being admitted. I slowly leaned in to listen to their conversation, curious to what their prognosis is. Almond seemed to just nod in acknowledgement of the nurse’s statements.
“Also, we’re going to keep her overnight a few days for a clinical observation. This is clearly a suicide attempt and we want to make sure she’s not clinically depressed and has the right mindset for her own health and safety.”
“Is that really necessary? I mean, I know I haven’t known her that long and she and I aren’t exactly close, but I don’t think she’s a threat to herself.” he inquired
“Mr. Cashew, I’m going to be frank. When someone tries to hurt their own life, there usually is more going on than what meets the eye. Now, since you are not family I can’t tell you any specific details. But, for Clementine’s best interest and the interest of others we are going to observe her behavior and hopefully have her open up to someone. Does that make sense?” the nurse reexplained
“I see. And yes, I understand. Just hard to believe her emotional state would be shaken to its core is all. Sorry for my disbelief.”
That’s when the nurse nodded in agreement to Almond’s words. Great, someone was here with me and I was going to be bombarded with questions. I’m still not prepared for everyone’s ambush. They’re going to mean well, but still. No one can know. Never. My story is so degrading and what if they don’t believe me? I let out a large sigh. That’s when Almond’s head snapped in my direction. Well, here goes Clementine.
“I didn’t realize you were awake.” he looked surprised
“Just enough to hear your conversation with the nurse.” I admitted
“Oh….you heard that?”
“Yeah, but its okay. I was going to eventually.”
“How are you feeling?” he half-smiled
“I’ve been better haha. I’m okay, just feel very weak.” I let out a small laugh
That’s when I stood up and Almond smiled. He must be glad that I’m okay. I’m not entirely sure how I feel about it yet. But, a small part of me is relieved to be breathing.
“How long have I been here?”
“Umm, just a little over twenty-four hours. They knocked you out so you could sleep and not wake up in a panic. Hope you don’t mind.”
I smiled and then looked down at the floor. How do you explain to someone you basically just did try to end your life? Not exactly a conversation starter….then again I wasn’t exactly expecting the next words to come out of Almond’s mouth.
” Clementine, why the berry would you try to end your own life?!” He shouted out of anger and misunderstanding
I started to frown and wince at his hurtful words. Who was he to judge my actions? He didn’t know one thing about my choice and thought pattern at the time. Who does he think he is to be the one looking from the outside in and to automatically judge and demand an answer. I didn’t like his tone on top of that. At this point, I wasn’t interesting in explaining myself to anyone. Even if that meant the usually nice and gentle Almond.
“You wouldn’t understand.” I whispered
That’s when Almond’s demeanor changed. Instead of his lips pouting out and body being tensed up, he sighed with defeat and frowned along with me.
“I may not understand. But, I want to. I want to know why the nicest and sweetest berry I know tried to submerge herself at the beach one rainy day.”
“Please Clementine, I don’t want these so called “professionals” deeming you as a clinically insane berry. I know you aren’t one. There has got to be a reason you tried to drown herself.” he pleaded
What? How does he know-
That’s when I realized it. He was the one I felt around me. Almond is the one who pulled me out of the water that day. He’s the one who admitted me to the hospital…..
That’s when I became embarrassed. I can’t believe he watched me submerge myself in the clear waters of the beach. I felt my body start to tense up. No wonder he was so interested. He actually saw the whole thing, didn’t just hear about it.
“Look, I can’t tell you Almond. I know that’s not what you want to hear, but I can’t.” I stuttered
“Are you sure? I’m no doctor, but talking about what is troubling you is better than keeping it in.” he looked concerned
I am truly grateful he’s this devoted to our friendship, but…
“Look. I know you’re being nice and as my friend you’re concerned, but I’m not ready and don’t want to tell you Almond.”
*sighs* “Okay Clementine. Do you want me to get you some water? “
I nodded. Turning away from him as the tears started to stream down my face. I couldn’t stand to face the horrible crime that was committed against me. I just want to forget about it. But, that’s when Almond turned right around and came up to be again.
“I tried to have Strawberry come see you, but she told me she doesn’t want to see you or talk to you. Did you guys have a fight? Is that why did it?” he interjected
“No. That’s not the reason. Can you please get me that water.” I sobbed
That’s when Almond was on his way out, and then again stopped midway. This time he didn’t turn around, he just turned his head to the side so I could hear him.
“I sure do hope you tell someone Clementine.”
While I was out getting Clementine’s water, I couldn’t help but shake the feeling that something terrible happened to her that lead her to take drastic measures. If she wasn’t going to speak to me, maybe she’d speak to Strawberry. The only problem is apparently they aren’t on speaking terms. I had to find a plan in which Strawberry would come down right away, so I thought I’d text her and just be blunt about Clementine’s situation.
Strawberry. Your best friend Clementine tried to commit suicide yesterday and is admitted in the hospital. She needs you. -Almond
I hated to be frank, but that was the only way Strawberry would even think about coming down.
“Aghh, who is it now?” she mumbled aloud
Strawberry. Your best friend Clementine tried to commit suicide yesterday and is admitted in the hospital. She needs you. -Almond
Strawberry’s eyes widened as she read the horrifying text. Clementine? Suicide?
“Oh my berry.” she covered her mouth in shock
Being in the hospital under surveillance is tiring. Especially when they think you’re going to injure yourself with anything sharp. Never thought I’d be treated like a criminal for dealing with the agony of being a victim. Almond was right. I need to talk about what happened. But, my mouth instantly shut when I think about his face. Its like he has his hands ready to force my lips shut and I’m imprisoned in my own misery. No matter how hard I try to forget, he keeps forcing his way back in.
During the midst of my self-loathing, my hospital room door slowly opened and a familiar face came peering around the oak door. It was Strawberry.
“Hi.” she said quick
I was a little surprised she was here considering we weren’t speaking to one another. But, then I remembered what Almond said. He hopes I confess my deepest secret to someone. Strawberry was the reinforcement. I wasn’t sure how to approach that, but I did have to talk to her and apologize about my behavior.
“Hi.” I whispered, as I slowly got up from the bed
I started to walk towards her, and when we were facing each other a silence fell upon the room. Definitely an awkward meeting between two friends. One just tried to kill herself and the other doesn’t know what to say to soothe that thought.
“How are you holding up?”
“Oh I’m alright, just weak. Oh, and they seem to think I’m clinically insane haha.” I chuckled at myself
“Haha, well glad you aren’t. At least I don’t think you are.” she laughed
“Look, Straw I need to apologize for my behavior a few weeks ago-“
“No, Clemmy. Don’t. You obviously had a lot on your mind and you just took it out on me. Its alright. Please you don’t explain yourself to me.”
“Okay…” I softly replied
“I just hope our fight didn’t lead to you to…..” she started
“What?! Oh no. No. That’s not why I umm…..did what I did. I promise.”
“Then why did you….do what you did?”
“I’m sorry Straw. I know we just cleared up the fight we had, but I can’t. I just can’t tell you the real reason. I want to, but no. ” I declined
“Are you sure Clemmy? You can trust me, you know that right?” she reassured
“I know I can, but I can’t trust myself. This isn’t something I easily admit. I want to tell you, but compelled not to.” I closed my eyes at the dreadful thought
Okay. That’s Part Two. I apologize for the length haha, I even didn’t use like four photos so its shortened some from what I originally thought 🙂 Hope you liked it, can’t say it measures up to Part One though. As I mentioned I’m more excited for Chapter Eight. Its a defining chapter, and I hope you guys like it too! 🙂
Hello hello again! 🙂 I am back with another chapter, but this one is a two-parter, as you’ve been warned. I’m sorry last chapter had such strong themes, and was quite depressing 😦 and fair warning, this chapter isn’t much better….
I’m hoping to get part two done this week too, and hopefully strive for chapter 8 this week, but we’ll see how that goes Lol. Don’t want to get too ambitious. Part one is relatively short, like 25 pics? I’m hoping part two isn’t that long either.
Otherwise, things to note…….
1. Profanity will most likely be used, you’ve been warned.
2. Disregard the unforeseen outfit change Clemmy does when she is in the water/ocean, just pretend she’s wearing her actual clothes lol, I haven’t figured out how to have it so they don’t automatically change in swimwear XD
3. Time also kinda moves a little fast in this chapter….
4. Anddd this chapter doesn’t directly address a strong theme of death, but if you read into it closely and carefully you’ll be able to figure out. If it makes you uncomfortable, or is too much for you, please do not read. I apologize in advance.
And as usual, told from Clementine’s POV, unless stated otherwise.
About a month later:
Um. Yeah. Wow. Its even harder to write it down.
Its….its been a month, since that day. I don’t know,…know how much I can talk about it, but I’ve read its healthy to talk about it, so I’m trying.
Luckily no one was home, when I stumbled in tears through the front door. I slowly shut the door, and collapsed to the floor. I don’t know how long I cried, his face and voice kept ringing in my ears. His hands, and his body. I could still feel all of it. No matter how many showers I’ve taken, and am still taking. I can’t wash him off or out of me. I feel so degraded. I threw out any clothes I wore around him, trying to box away his memory. But, everyday his sly and sneaky smile creeps into my mind. The first few weeks I would wake up in a cold sweat and breathing frantically. I had to lie to everyone telling them it was just a bad dream. But, in reality it wasn’t just a dream. It was a true nightmare.
I tried keeping busy, by changing my clothes and look so I wasn’t reminded of what he “liked”, working on my novel, and even looking online for information. But….nothing worked. I couldn’t write about a strong female character when my soul has been shattered into tiny pieces. I didn’t have the guts to admit what happened, even to a stranger online, and changing my clothes didn’t help either. He had me wrapped around this twisted game, and I was running around blindly with no way out.
Other days, the good days as I call them, my body just becomes lethargic and I lay around everywhere mopping in self-pity. I call these good days because instead of hysterically crying and tearing myself at the seams, I’m just feeling sorry for myself and am more somber.
Yesterday was one of the hardest days I had, and I’m still not quite recovered from it. I was sorta waiting for how long someone would realize I haven’t really been myself for this past month. I haven’t talked to anyone in the house, especially Straw. I did’t think it would take her this long to realize I didn’t gush over my so-called date, but I think she was busy winning over some new boytoy. Which is fine. I needed the distraction. I was worried she was going to ask me the morning after, but I managed to elude her. That was until yesterday.
“Hey hey, Ms. Moscato, how did that date go of yours? Its been a month and you haven’t given me any of the juicy ideas yet?!” she came into the room smiling and playfully noted
I quickly cringed at the idea of my “date”. “Yeah, some date. If only you knew.” is what I thought. But, she mustn’t know. No one can know. Would only make things worse. I slowly sighed, and then something snapped. His voice and face came flooding to my mind, and it was like he was right in front of me again. I broke.
“What is it to you?! So what if I didn’t tell you, its my personal life okay!” I screamed
Unfortunately, my tone was hoarse and very serious. The total opposite of what I’m normally like, and Straw could tell. She was very taken back with how I reacted, and wasn’t sure what to do. But, my blow up wasn’t finished yet.
“Whoa, okay, sorry. I was just asking since you seemed-“
“Well just forget about the whole thing. Just forget I told you about him, and how I felt about him. Its not important and you shouldn’t care. Its not your life to worry about, so just stay the berry butt out! “
That’s when I whipped my head around in angst and waited for her to walk way and just forget about the whole conversation and the existence of that berry of a man I mentioned to her. But, the damage was done, and it would take more than an apology to talk to her again.
“Fine. If that’s how you want to be.” she quietly responded
I didn’t say anything, because I was fighting back tears and sobs. She couldn’t see me like that.
“Well when you decide to get rid of the berry foot that’s stuck up your ass, you let me know. Also, when you want to stop being a bitch, apologize and explain yourself, let me know. Otherwise I don’t see any reason to talk to you further if you’re not going to be my friend and accept my friendship. I thought we had trust.”
I didn’t bother establishing eye contact with her, I was too angry, sad and ashamed to look her in the eye. I waited until she stormed out of the house, probably to go blow off steam. I rushed into the bedroom, I couldn’t hold in my feelings any longer. All I could do was cry and let the tears stream down my face.
Great, now I pushed one of my friends away. I didn’t want to, but thinking about him plays with my emotions violently. I either get irate or clinically depressed. I’m on a emotional roller coaster and don’t know how to let people in. Worse yet, I don’t want to let them in. I just want to shut everyone out, and be in the corner by myself.
I just don’t know what to do anymore. I can’t talk about, but I want to open up. But, I can’t. It feels impossible. I can’t walk around with such a burden and heavy heart. I just, I need air. I’m feeling suffocated in this house of people I trust and know but yet, can’t tell them the one thing I know I have to confess.
I need to walk it off and clear my head.
I didn’t care if it was storming out and pouring rain. I found it fitting actually, seems mother nature is feeling what I’m feeling and she somehow understands me. For awhile I just let the rain hit my skin. My skin was still burning from getting so worked up. The cooling sensation felt like a slow cleanse.
I took my time getting there, after all it was all the way on the other side of town. I avoided walking past the university in case someone I know or have made an acquaintance with saw me. Looking at all of the brightly colored houses, and little kids peering outside the window frowning because of the rain. I imagine that they wanted to go play in the rain, but their parents shook their fingers. Oh to be young and innocent. That’s when it was all easy. Being adult makes things complicated. You can be on top of the world one minute, and down in a six foot grave the next. Life was that ride you always wanted to take when you weren’t tall enough, but now that you are, you’re scared for your life and now want to get off as soon as you got on.
When I reached the beach the rain had slowly led up. It was just a drizzle now. I saw an open long chair, and decided to take a seat and gaze into the beautiful scenery. I watched every little ripple form from each water droplet landing o the surface and causing the disturbance. My mother was right, the beach here is beautiful. So peaceful. Reminds me of the real love my parents have for each other. I believe she said that this is where my dad first kissed her or told her he had feelings for her. Such a lovely place.
That’s when I looked at the water rippling around and splashing from some fish shooting out of the water. It made me smile, another organism who is free to swim and live with no betrayal. So liberating. I’m not entirely sure if it was that, or some unnatural force enticed me to get closer to the cold water and the small waves crashing into the beach. But, I wanted a closer look.
I slowly crept up to the shoreline. Staring through the water, looking at the sandy and muddy bottom. I just wanted to stick my feet in and feel how mushy it is….
That’s when I didn’t hesitate, I decided to go for it. I didn’t care if it was raining or cold out. The water was calling my name in little whispers and I obeyed them. I first went knee deep in. It was chilling, but invigorating. I almost had to gasp to catch my breath again. Didn’t expect the clear waters to take me by surprise.
That’s when I wanted to go farther and deeper into the water.
That’s when I slowly started to submerge my body into the clear blue sea, letting the waves hit him and push me every which way. It made me smile, the water felt so dense and cool against my body, as my clothes became drenched in them. It was just as calming as it looked. I couldn’t help but twirl in the water, and swim around some. It was like I was a kid and it was bath time and all the cares in the world didn’t matter. I just had to become master of the sea.
That’s when I floated on my back, and looked up at the sky as more rain droplets kept hitting my face and the water surrounding me. I lifted my hands up to feel the rain hit my palms. That’s when I shut my eyes, taking it all in. It was so peaceful and serene. I didn’t want to open my eyes. I just let the water engulf me whole, and I slowly slide through the water, I only opened up eyes for a moment to see the sky start to darken as I slid further into the water .
As the world around me grew silent, I felt my lips slowly smile. Remembering what life once was, so easy and quiet. I want to get back to that. Maybe this was the only way to do achieve that once again.
Alrighty! That’s Part One! I hope it wasn’t too heart heavy for you as last one was :3 though, this one isn’t much better. I hope I didn’t provoke too many feelings of hurt or negativity, I tried to be subtle about it. I didn’t want to warn you exactly what it was in the beginning because that would of ruined the chapter, but let me know if more of a warning would be appropriate please. Don’t want anyone offended.
Also, I can’t seem to find the sheet where I wrote done the creator of the one pose used I’m sorry! I appreciate whoever created it though! As multiples uses.
I’m not sure when Part Two will be out. As of today and the past three days I haven’t been feeling the best. Not sure if I have a fever or my apartment is just really hot haha, and I haven’t had much of an appetite. Along with that had some lower right abdominal pain….which I know can’t be my ovary since I don’t have the right one anymore, and I’m wondering if its appendicitis since I have three of the symptoms, but I’m discouraged because the pain only comes when I’m laying down and ready to sleep? I think if it was appendicitis it would be constant, so hopefully its not that. Can’t afford that right now, once you have issues with your appendix they just remove it right away, and with school starting a week from today….I don’t think so haha. If anyone thinks its appendicitis let me know haha because a second opinion would be nice. I know i should go to urgent care or ER but I was there oct-dec for abdominal pain and all they told me is that I have “painful periods” which it clearly is not since I’m not on my period, and they just tell me they don’t know what it is. So I’m not chancing it again to be there for 4 hours with no results.
Heyy 🙂 Hope everyone is having a fun time around this holiday season! I have an early New Years Present! Chapter seven is here, and this was originally supposed to be broken up into two separate updates, but turns out that wasn’t going tow work. I hope you guys enjoy the update…I’m starting to get sim baby fever, and am ready for Generation Two to be born so I can see what they look like! Plus I always pre-pick names haha. I know I take things a little far with my sims. After I finish this update, I’m going to go plan (hopefully) the next two chapters and get to playing!
Also there have been some minor changes with downloads. Instead of sims3pack files being uploaded to box.net, I’ve changed the downloads into being .sim files. That seems to be the preferred file type and is probably much easier. This is a file you would put directly into your saved sims file, in case you are wondering. So all the downloads have been updated on my box.net, but if you want sims3 pack files, the ones uploaded to ts3 site are still listed.
NOTE: STRONG LANGUAGE MAY BE USED
I’m not totally sure about that warning, but I figured I’d put it up anyway. Don’t want to offend anyone.Also, POV is going to change in this chapter, but it will be noted.
Okay, I think that’s it for “announcements” Shall we get on with the chapter? I think we shall.
It had been a week in a-half so far since he left to go back home. It still doesn’t seem real, and I keep feeling sadness about him leaving. In fact, it seems like its rained here in Apple Loosa Pie everyday he’s been gone. I know that I’m feeling too much for this man I met and spent four-almost five days with. That’s not enough time to develop such strong feelings for someone is it? I don’t know anymore. My feelings are all over the place, and one thing keeps coming to mind. I want to see him again. No. I want to be with him again. I never realized, until he stayed here how much I really loathe being alone. I think for all these past three years I kept telling myself I liked the quaint and quietness of my own company, when really I was just fooling myself and everyone who asked.
From the day he left, I check the computer multiple times a day. Looking for a message from him. Anything, even if its just a simple “hi” or “hello, how are you Sunshine?”. Even though I really hated that nickname, I liked hearing him call me it. Made me feel special. Sometimes I would find an excuse to stay on the computer all day just waiting or some notification to pop up from him. But, nothing. After two days of silence, I started to feel discouraged that he just lied to me and lead me on. I didn’t want to think that though. I couldn’t. There was something different about him. I just know it. He was genuine, wasn’t he? I don’t know. I just know I can’t give up on him so easily.
After moping for almost two weeks straight, Apple noticed my absence from life, and invited me out to the library. I didn’t hestiate or decline, since I knew I had to get out of my own prison of a house. Plus, I’d be meeting my niece for virtually the first time. Apple was pretty protective of her when she was first born since she had that new mother syndrome. Totally understandable, I would be the same way. But, she would always send me pics of her, and she was the cutest little girl ever. She looked just like Apple, but with December’s hair color. She even had the cutest name. They named her Clover Lime.
I have to admit I do love being an aunt. I’m an only child, so its a role I take very seriously. Clover is a fun little girl too, just like her mother. I hope I get to see more of her, and I can’t wait to see her grow up into a beautiful, young girl. Apple is such a lucky woman to have a husband and daughter. A family. Makes me extremely jealous. I want to have someone to call my own and someone to call me “mom”. Its not that I’m getting older and my biological clock is ticking. I’m just lonely and want change. Something in my life needs to change. Everything seems so repetitive, and nothing good has really happened. Except for meeting Tangerine.
“Meri my sweet yellow berry, where have you been?!” Apple delighted
“Oh you know, just been at home really. Sulking….” I shyly admitted
“Why?…is this because that guy, Tang…was it? Left?
“Umm, yeah. He said we’d keep in touch, but I haven’t heard from it. I’m probably just being too paranoid about it.I know.”
“You and your worrisome self.” she teased
“I can’t help it with him. I really like him.” I shouted
“He still hasn’t called you yet? Its been two weeks since then?
“I hate to say it Meri, but I maybe he’s just leading you on and getting your hopes up for nothing.” she blurted out
“See, that’s the thing. I just know he’s not. I can feel it. There’s something different about him. I know it.” I explained
“I don’t know Meri. I mean if he really didn’t want to leave you and promised to keep in touch, wouldn’t he of done so already?”
“Well, maybe but-“
“But, what? Don’t make excuses for him Meri. You don’t deserve this, you are worth much more than that.” she interrupted
“I wasn’t making excuses. He is a busy guy, I mean he had to take five days off, I’m sure he has a lot of catching up to do.” I finished
“Well okay, if you say so. Just don’t get your hopes up okay? For me?”
“Alright, but you’ll eventually see that he’s different.”
After Apple basically made me feel berry hopeless and definitely pointed it out, I really just wanted to unwind. I also figured I would check my email one last time, and then start to think over my feelings about Tangerine. Maybe Apple was right? Or she was just being overly concerned like I was with her dating December. I don’t know. All I know is that I wanted to talk to him at least one last time.
As I hopped into my wooden computer chair, my heart was racing like it always did when I thought of Tangerine or thought about seeing a message with his name next to it. It almost made me feel nervous. Even when he’s not here, he has a way of making me weak. A good kind of weak. I logged in with my username and much to my surprise there was a message from him! Received earlier today when I was with Apple. I knew he wouldn’t let me down, I just knew it! I quickly double-clicked and couldn’t wait to open it and read his words
Hey Sunshine. I’m sorry I didn’t get to this sooner, I really am. Been busy with work and making my apartment looking like someone lives in it again. I hope I didn’t worry or upset you too much. I would of called, but most nights I don’t get home until very late and I don’t want you to lose sleep over me. Things look like they might start dying down, and I might be able to come see you soon. I hope that sounds good? I know you’re always home, so I might just pop up one day. I’m sure you wouldn’t mind. I can’t wait to see your smile again. Until then.
It felt so good to read his words. Even thought I couldn’t physically hear him saying the words, I could hear his voice in them. I knew he cared about me. I read his words with a smile on my face, and there was the beloved nickname. Sunshine. I could hear him saying it now. I quickly replied back, telling him I was fine and it was good hear from and all that. I can say however, I went to bed happy that night.
When I sent that email to Meri I wasn’t sure if I really believed what I was saying. I mean most of it was true, I was busy with work and a little part of me did miss her. I just wasn’t sure if I wanted to see her again. Or I wasn’t sure if I could face that smile. She was a sweet girl and didn’t deserve my acquaintance, and quite frankly I didn’t deserve hers. But, in a way fate brought us together and so did my way of life. I just don’t want to hurt her, but I think its too late to be saying that now. As I’m about to walk into the worst meeting, all concerning her.
Where or what was I walking into you ask? A meeting with my client. Errr let me rephrase that. He’s my client, but I think in actuality I’m his client. Yeah, I didn’t know it was going to turn that way when I first took on his case. Trust me, lately I’ve been starting to regret ever hearing his message on my phone. See, I’m a small-time lawyer living in the big city trying to make it big. I deal mostly with business claims, but word has spread fast that I’m a dirty player. Which I am. I won’t deny it. I’ll do anything to ensure my client’s win, and my paycheck. Sadly, that’s the exact type my client is looking for. He’s a dirty player too, and knows how to get what he wants. His name is Coffee Bean. I’m sure you’ve heard of him, he owns all of Briocheport essentially.
What does he want with me you ask? My talent, or specialties? Well as I said, he owns most of Briocheport and is looking to branch out and that my berry friends is Apple Loosa Pie. Starting to put things together yet? Well I’m hired for his business expenditures and the legal troubles he’ll run into as he starts to monopolize Apple Loosa Pie. Small town people don’t like when big companies move to town. How does this entail Meri? Well to put it simple, her lot is so far the cheapest to attain, and even though I’m his lawyer, I’ve now become his guinea pig to scope out who lived here and woo them over the idea of either moving or turning over their land to Coffee. Little did I know that met wooing over the woman that lives there. At first I was fully there for the job, but I didn’t know she would so sweet and I’d really develop feelings for her. That’s why I’m starting to regret this whole ordeal.
When I walked into his office, he was alone with a bottle of wine on his desk. He was that type, drink throughout the day and chase all the woman that want him. He also has his usual thugs in the room, but tonight was different I guess.
“Tangerine, my man!” he cheered
“Hey.” I greeted him quietly
“How goes our business deal?”
Did I want to tell him the truth? Of course not. But, do I want to get paid, yes. Its a conflicting situation, trust me I’ve been over the choices over and over. But, I think I’ve come to my final choice in the matter.
“It goes. Everything has been going smoothly so far. Just didn’t help that you called me or an update and I had to leave. That puts a damper on our timeline. But, everything should fall into place.”
“Ha! Excellent. I knew this plan would work perfectly. And its so berry-fudging easy! Ha, man I love being me.” he soaked in his own ego
“Oh, and I’m sorry or calling you. You weren’t giving me any updates, and you know what happens when I don’t know what’s going on with my jobs.”
He was truly a vile man. I had no berry idea why I agreed to work with him.
“Yeah I had a few things to say about this particular “job” actually.” I sighed
“Oh? You have an even better way of doing this? Gah! I love how great minds think alike!” he gushed
“Uh, not exactly. I’ve decided that I want to opt out of this business agreement. I’m sorry, but I’m not cut out for your way of working. I thought I was, but I can’t.”
I didn’t want to tell him the actual truth because Meri doesn’t need to even more involved with this man than what she already is. Plus, she doesn’t even know she is.
“What did you just say to me?
“I said I can’t do this anymore. I’m quit-” I started
“QUITTING? You don’t just work for me and then quit! What do you think you’ve reached the ranks to do that all of sudden, I don’t think so!” he interrupted furiously
“No one quits out on Coffee Bean, especially my lawyer! You WILL FOLLOW THROUGH with the job you have to do, do you hear me?”
I jumped back at his anger. I had no idea he was going to flip out like that. I can imagine I looked like a deer caught in the headlights about to meet his demise. I took a deep breath, but couldn’t say anything to counter him. I admitted defeat too easily, but what do you say to that? I wasn’t sure what to say, or even what to do.
“I don’t think you fully understand the guidelines or our agreement. When you know the inner workings of Bean Industries, you can’t just opt out.You better take a good look at your choices here. There’s only one way out, and I think you know what it is. If you cross me, expect the same back. I have a feeling that girl is very precious to you now? It’d be a shame to lose that wouldn’t it?.” he warned
He was right. I did know that “one way” but I never actually thought it would be used one me. I mean, what did he expect when we were done working with together? So many questions came flowing to my mind, and the thought of Meri being hurt angered me. No one would hurt that wonderful berry of a woman.
“You wouldn’t dare to touch her. She has no part in this, leave her out.” I spat
“Oh she has everything to do with this. If it wasn’t for her or you, you wouldn’t of toyed with this idea of “quitting.” Remember that the next time you see me. I don’t hesitate and always follow through. “
“We’ll see about you. Remember I’ve been to the lowest of the low, and I’m not afraid to take certain measures if I have to. You think you can threaten me and I’ll just take it? I don’t think so. You better watch what you say around. I may look polished now, but I was once a thug just like you.”
“Oh don’t be so naive Tang.” he shook his head at me
I didn’t say thing in return. I said what I had to. I was done. Done with him, done with this corrupt job of mine and done with this town. I had to see Meri and tell her the truth. The truth will hurt her, but she needs to hear it from me. I can’t handle this burden I’m carrying anymore. So I walked right out that door, and drove straight to the only sunshine in my life.
I drove all night to make it in time to Apple Loosa Pie. I’m sure Coffee Bean knows by now I’m not backing down. I intend to get out of this mess one way or another. By the time I reached Meri’s house it was already midday. I forgot how far apart we really are. I parked down the street a ways. I don’t know why, but I felt like I should. As I started walking up towards her house, seeing that yellow siding put a smile on my face. I forgot how being close to her is like a big, gust of fresh air. As I approached closer, I noticed she was outside on her wooden lounge chair. She looked so happy and peaceful.
This was going to be harder than I thought. How do you tell the woman you developed feelings for her that everything they did together was a lie? I wasn’t prepared, but it had to be done.
I was about to approach her, when I saw her legs swoop to one side of the chair and she perked up her head. She must of heard my feet shuffling through the grass. Nothing gets by her sometimes. That’s when she turned around. Her eyes widened at the site of me. I could see my orange reflection in her eyes. She smiled, but it quickly turned into a frown she seemed to be fighting. I could tell she really missed me. It was bittersweet to see her. I missed her too. She quickly got up and rushed over to me, pulling me in a gentle, but heartfelt hug.
“I can’t believe its really you.” she whispered
“I can’t believe I’m here either.” I said
“I’ve missed you.”
Those words meant so much, but hurt so much. I took a deep breath, and prepared myself for a broken heart.
“Sunshine…I mean, Meri. Listen, there’s something I need to tell you. Its very important and you deserve to know.”
“Oh..umm alright.” she was puzzeled
“Here goes nothing.” I mumbled under my breath
“You know when my car broke down just along the road here?”
“Yes, it was only a month ago.”
“Yeah…it didn’t really break down. That was a lie. I actually had different intentions when I rang your doorbell that night.” I let out a breath of relief
“Then what were your intentions? I’m confused.” she asked
“Before I tell you, I want you to know my feelings are true for you. I do have feelings for you, just the things we did weren’t genuine. The reason I came that night was because of my-“
Just as I was about to pour out the truth I’ve been hiding for a month, I saw him walking up behind her, toward us. No. This can’t be happening, he’s already here!? But, how? This can’t be happening. I just stood there, frozen. I couldn’t speak. I had the words right there but my mouth wouldn’t open. I was waiting for him to make his move.
“Yes, Tang please tell us what were your real intentions with this young woman.” he smiled at me like a sly dog
“Wh-who are you?”
“Who am I? I’m his employer dear. And I’m sorry to hear that one of my employees would lead on you romantically for his own personal gain.”
What? No! That’s not true, I had to put an end to this!
“What? Meri no, don’t listen to him. He’s lying. Meri, don’t you dare think that’s true!”
Meri just looked at me clueless to what’s going on and what’s being said to her.
“I can’t believe I had some berry scum like that working for me.” he played
Did I just hear this man correctly? Tang used me for his own personal gain? I couldn’t help but shutter at the idea. Once again, another berry man that has walked all over me. What is with this repetitiveness? Why would he do that? I just closed my eyes and wished for everything to go right for once. To be taken away from this moment in time, and having something good happen to me. I really liked him. I needed to know why. I didn’t care at this point. I need to know why he would fill my heart up with so much love, and then tear it out without hesitation.
“Why in the berry would you do that to me!?” I snapped
“What? Meri are you seriously going to listen to him? I came here to confess this to you, he’s trying to fill your mind up with lies! He’s a vile berry, listen to me!” he pleaded
“That doesn’t matter. Why would you lie in the first place? I don’t care about your confession. There should be no confession!”
“Meri, at least I had the confidence to come up here and tell you myself. He doesn’t want you to know the truth because its about how corrupt of a man he is!”
I just looked at the ground in disbelief of his lies. I can’t handle anymore lies. I just need the truth from him.
“No more lies Tang. Tell me the truth. Now.” I softly asked
“Are you serious? I’m not lying! What can I do to make you believe me? Honest to berry I am telling you the truth. I already lied once, I don’t need to keep digging myself a bigger hole. He’s the liar. He wanted me to come here so he can try to obtain your property! But, you don’t deserve this, that’s why I came here tonight.” he frantically argued
“I don’t know if I can believe you now. I don’t know who or what to believe anymore. I’v been lied to so much, and your’e not helping.”
I kept looking at the ground until I could tell Tangering walked off in distress. I couldn’t even look him directly in the eyes anymore. His eyes were once a safe place, but now are desert of lies. I wish I knew what to do, I really did. I’m just so confused and don’t know what to think. I want to crawl up in a ball and cry until I can’t anymore. That was until the other man walked up to me with sympathetic eyes.
“Meri is it? I’m sorry you had to witness this man and his true intentions. If I knew that’s what he really had in mind, he wouldn’t be employed for me. You don’t deserve this kind of treatment. Please, let me know if there is anything I can do for you. ” he offered
“No, there’s nothing you can do for me. I don’t want to see another berry man ever again. Especially on my property. You can both leave. I don’t need to see you two ever again. I’m done.”
Alright, that is chapter seven! I am so sorry about the length! I didn’t expect it to be that long. But, you can see why I couldn’t break it up into two parts? I hope you enjoyed the update, and now I have to figure out the next events that are going to occur so it flows smoothly 🙂 Happy New Year!