Back again 🙂 I’m doing pretty good getting these updates out haha, which this generation is going to be longer than Meri’s just an fyi. But, I feel like just a few chapters I’ll be finishing it up, hard to believe considering its been a year since this generation started. This chapter is relatively long, but no way I could break it up into two parts. I’d say its a fair amount of dialogue instead of narration.
Hmm not sure what else to mention. Oh! This will be the last chapter for awhile because I’m itching to switch sim families, and there’s a generation I have yet to even start in one family haha. Plus, I need a break from plotty sim playing.
Things to note:
1. Profanity may be used
2. Full moon decided to come out when I didn’t want it to, so lighting is a bit weird towards the end, I attempted to deal with it the best I could.
3. POV will shift in this chapter, and will be noted.
“What do you think the doctor wants to talk to you about so last minute?” Straw asked
“Honestly I have no idea. I passed all of my evaluations, and there’s nothings seriously wrong with me physically or internally, at least nothing serious that I know. Probably give me a pep talk about how I should talk to someone through my problems.” I speculated
She did have a point. What did they want to talk to me about? They told I could be discharged an hour ago. I hope everything is alright or they don’t bring one of those child-like psychologists who talks to me like I’m a child. I was just as baffled as her. That was until the nurse came in.
“Ms. Clementine Moscato?” she asked
“So everything is alright, and you are ready to be discharged, we just have one final thing to discuss. After running those blood and urine samples we took from you, it turns out you are about four weeks pregnant. Congratulations on the new addition to your life. The doctor has scheduled some prenatal appointments for you so you can get up to date on the pregnancy and know what to expect. Otherwise, you are free to go.”
“Ww-what? Me? Pregnant?” my eyes widened with each reiterated word
No. I can’t be. Couldn’t be. My worst fear just came true. I’m carrying half of my rapist inside of me. No matter what I do, I can’t be free from his clutch. I broke down right then and there. The tears just started to fall from my eyes, and I quickly covered my face, trying to hide my sobs from the two women standing in front me of me.
“This….this can’t be happening.” I cried
“And you’re for certain she’s with child?” Straw chimed in
I could hear the disappointment in her voice, as she said “with child”. I was too ashamed to even look at her as I hung my head low with shame. A poor college student who went and got herself pregnant. I’m sure that’s what she’s thinking. I could feel her eyes on me, just waiting to say something to me.
However, I wasn’t expecting to be railroaded when I was finally was discharged and home once again. Just when I thought I repaired my relationships, it seems they were about to fall apart all over again.
“I can’t believe you Clementine! I cannot believe you! I swear on my berry sweet mother that you better not have tried that because you are now pregnant.” she immediately started to scream at me
“No. Never. I didn’t do any of this because I’m pregnant. I swear! I didn’t even know until the nurse told me today!” I drew back, trying to explain myself
“Oh do not feed me that shit Clementine. You wanted our pity party for you because you had a hunch you were pregnant and instead of taking responsibility for your actions and the outcomes. You make me sick. Here we are rushing to your aide, but you’ve been playing us the whole time.”
“How can you say that Strawberry? Do you really think I knew I was pregnant. I had no idea. Didn’t you see the shock I was in?”
“Whoa, ladies whats all the yelling about? I thought you guys mended your relationship?” Almond cut in
“Oh so did I. Until she pulls this shady shit on me. Go ahead Clemmy, tell Almond how you tried to drown yourself due to the fact of a pregnancy.” Straw bellowed
After ranting about supposed actions and announcing my pregnancy to the world, she eventually walked off and left, slamming the door behind her. So much for discretion.
“Is that true Clementine?”
“Of course not Almond. I would never endanger the life of someone else. Besides, I just found out I’m pregnant today before I left the hospital. How was I supposed to know?” I clarified
“Well, all I have to say is it better not be true. In fact, hearing you’re pregnant is a shock itself. But, no child deserves a mother who won’t take her obvious actions to heart and as suggested, take responsibility. I hope for your sake, and your unborn’s child’s sake, that won’t be you. ” he warned
Then just as the other berry, whom I thought was my friend, he walked off. Once again, I felt helpless. I don’t know why no one was believing me. I would never hurt someone else’s life. Never. Even if, I don’t agree with how this child was conceived or despise its’ father. I felt a frown slowly form, once again I’m a alone with no one to turn to. They don’t understand, this wasn’t a choice.
But, I’m sure if they knew the truth they would tell me I didn’t even try to tell them.
I decided I’d go somewhere, where I can usually think clearly and think in silence. No, I wasn’t going to the beach either. I went to the library instead. You’re probably thinking that’s a bad choice, because this is where I met my rapist but he can’t take this place away from me. I won’t let him. This is my sanctuary and I’m going to fight to keep it. It was starting to get late, but I didn’t care. The library was open twenty-four hours here and that meant not a lot of people would be there. I just wanted to sit there, and think about everything that’s lead up to this point.
If I wouldn’t of came to the library that night, I probably would have never met him. But, nope. I just had to have the urge to read in silence. I couldn’t of just read at home. That’s too easy. This could of all been prevented if I would of just stayed home.
Just one small mistake lead up to this. That’s when I started to feel my belly, and try to visualize being a mother and the growing baby inside me. I’m going to be a mom. Never thought I’d hear those words. I didn’t even plan on having a family. But, here we are. I am pregnant with my attacker’s child, and a part of him is inside me. At least for nine months, then a part of him is combined with me and is now in the form a berry. An innocent baby who has to grow up without a father, and will probably never know him because of the monster he is.
How am I going to do this? I can barely take care of myself. I’m falling apart at the seams as it is. Admitting defeat before I even become a mom made me upset. This child doesn’t deserve this kind of life or upbringing, but now its their fate. There’s no way I’m going to be able to single parent someone who reminds me of someone who destroyed my whole life.
“Its impossible.” I sobbed to myself
“This can’t be done. I can’t help raise this child. What if I’m a horrible mom.”
I was just finishing some research for my final projects, when someone was crying hysterically on the second floor of the library. I tried to ignore her, but I mean this is a library? Go cry at home, some of us actually use this place to study.
Of course, that was until I got off the computer and saw who this woman was. It was Clementine. She was Almond’s friend, the one I met and was actually, quite rude to. I started to walk towards her, but then stopped to awkwardly elude her. Should I go talk to her? What if she hates me and wishes to never see me again. I mean, I basically told her off and she looks in distress already. But, then again….Almond did tell me about her recent shortcomings, about how she tried to submerge herself under water. So I should go talk to her, make sure she’s okay.
During my sob fest, I heard someone else on the floor, but I ignored them. Until I see feet standing next to me. I recognized her feet, it was Elixir? What is she doing here?
“Elixir? What are you doing here?” I sniffled
“I came to see if you were alright, since I could hear you crying.” she replied
Elixir? Coming to see if I’m alright? That’s surprising considering she despises me as being Almond’s friend. But, at least she’s here and I can maybe talk to someone, if my conscious lets me.
“Soo, are you alright? Crying at midnight, in a library usually isn’t a good sign.”
I wasn’t sure if she actually knew about what was going on with me or not, but I decided to lie.
“Oh I’m alright, just a little emotional these days is all. Sorry for bothering you.”
“Yeah, I don’t mean to pry or sound rude but, you were crying as if someone died, and as I mentioned in the library. Plus, Almond told me about the problems you’ve been facing lately. I don’t think you’re okay Clementine.” she pointed out
She was right. I’m not okay. I’ve been sexually violated by someone I trusted, tried to kill myself and now am carrying his baby. I’m harboring too much guilt and stress. I can’t hold this in any longer.
“No, you’re right. I’m in horrible condition. My life has been ripped from me for the past month. First, I meet someone I thought I could trust, but only ended up being betrayed.” I wailed
“What? How did they betray you?”
“He, he, “
“He what Clementine. Please, tell me so I can help you.” she pleaded
“He raped me, and now I’m pregnant with his child. I don’t think I can handle much more.” I sobbed
As I was wiping away tears from my eyes, I could tell Elixir wasn’t sure how to respond to that kind of news. But, a huge sigh of relief has been lifted from my chest. I feel like I can breathe again, knowing someone finally knows. But, now I had to really explain. I just hope I’m ready for that.
“Uh..I’m sorry, I’m not sure what to say Clementine.”
“Do you want to tell me more about this man though. It sounds like you’ve been keeping this a secret for a long time. I don’t want to push you, but I can tell you’re already feeling some relief.” she said
“Um. Yeah, I can try to. You’re the first person I told, so I’m not sure how open I’ll be.”
“That’s okay. Start off small. Who is he?”
“His name is Choc Bean, I met him here actually. At the library. That’s when he asked me out, and we had a great time. He was funny, classy and smart. I couldn’t believe a man like him would want to go out with me actually.” I started
“By the third date, we went to a movie and he was walking me home because it was dark out. A night like tonight. We were walking on the path behind the house, and his attitude changed. He was more demanding and was curious about my personal history with men. I told him that wasn’t important and I didn’t want to tell him. He then started to joke about how I’ve probably never been with a man and then he forced himself on me. I told him no, repeatedly. And I mean repeatedly.”
“I believe you Clementine. No means no.” she soothed
“And now, now, I’m pregnant and have no idea how I’m going to raise a child that was conceived in the worst way possible. Or the fact he or she will share DNA with that horrible man.” I started to cry again
“Hey, don’t cry Clementine. After telling me what you just went through, you’re strong enough to keep your head up still. You will make it through this, its just going to be a long road and as you’ve probably come to know, an emotional one too. Here, let’s sit down.” she reassured
“Are you going to go through the pregnancy then?”
“Well, every child deserves life so of course I am. But, then again I’m torn between how I”m going to parent a child who will remind me of my rapist. What if my son or daughter ends up looking just like him. Plus, what if they ask about their father? There’s a lot of unanswered questions that need to be concerned. Plus, I’m going to need a lot of support which I don’t have right now.” I explained
“Even though we aren’t exactly friends yet, I want you to know I’ll support here. This wasn’t your choice. I’m sure if you told Almond and Strawberry they will behind you too.” she smiled
“I don’t know about that. Straw was there when they told me I was pregnant, and she thinks I tried to commit suicide because of this baby. But, I had no idea I was pregnant, and I would never endanger someone else’s life. Then she went and blew it all up to Almond, and I think he fears the same thing. So, they aren’t exactly happy with me.”
“What? That’s ridiculous. That berry of a woman had the audacity to say that to you. And Almond believed her? Almond needs to be talked to then. They both should know that wouldn’t be like you. I can even tell.”
Its strange how much better I felt telling Elixir about what happened to me. For someone to just listen has you tell her details that were humiliating and inappropriate, it meant a lot. I’m glad she was here tonight. Having someone hear me out with no judgement. Especially since we didn’t start off on the right foot. I’m glad I built up the courage to come clean. I feel like, for the first time in this past month, everything will be okay as they’ve been telling me.
“Listen, your baby may share half of its’ DNA with its berryhole of a father, but you’re the one who’s going to carry this baby to term, and be there when they’re welcomed into the world. That’s what makes a parent. Your baby will love you unconditionally, as I’m sure you will him or her. I think you’ll be a great mom, even if you have no idea what you’re doing.” she pulled me into a hug
“Thanks. I really needed this. You have no idea how much guilt I’ve been keeping inside.” I let out a small smile
“You’re welcome, but you need to tell Strawberry and Almond. If they knew the truth, they wouldn’t of acted like they did. The more you share, the better you’ll feel. As painful as that sounds. I’ll be there for you when you decide to tell them.”
I think…I think I’m finally going to be saved.
Elixir Rush Parfait is provided by alfalfalegacy/Minty. Thank you for letting me borrow her 🙂 I’m sorry it took so long for her part to come into play though!
That was Chapter Eight 🙂 I think this is a chapter a lot of readers were hoping for. I’m going to take a little break from The Moscato’s though, so enjoy the four updates while they lasted haha. Thanks for reading and commenting.
Hello hello! Part Two is finally here! 🙂 Part One got such great reviews! and I wanted to thank you all for your kind words! I really appreciate it! I hope Part Two will measure up haha, its much longer than part one and did not plan on that, so I apologize ahead of time. I’m more excited for the next chapter haha because it will be another one of those chapters I think you guys will like.
As usual some things to note haha
1. Part Two is mainly conversation, less narrating. It was hard to convey facial expressions/conversation in little pictures so I got a little overboard.
2. I don’t believe any profanity is used, but if there’s a small chance you’ve been warned.
3. There are some outfit changes that look weird and screw up the shot, but please try to ignore the green shirt you’ll see Clemmy in for two shots. Its annoying I know.
4. There is a puddle of water in one picture, the sink just happened to break at that moment and was too lazy to move the sim to a different room. Just ignore lol.
5. POV will shift in this update, and will be noted throughout. But, just so you’re aware of the change. We will start off with Clementine’s POV as usual.
I started to tousle around, just awaking from a deep slumber that felt like years. I could tell I wasn’t in my own bed because of how uncomfortable I was. I slowly kicked my legs around to change positions and slowly open my eyes. The room I was in was extremely bright and pure white. “I’m in the hospital I bet” I told myself.
Sure enough I looked to the left of me and there were three chairs for visitors to sit at, and to the right a small table with a fresh flower gently suspended in a vase. That’s when I was alarmed by two people talking far off in the distance. I glanced over by the door, and it was Almond talking to a nurse. I could really make out what they were saying, but I imagine it was about my status or their conclusions of me. Made me cringe that they were talking about me without me knowing or even me being awake.
“We gave her a sedative so she could sleep. Her body seemed to be dehydrated and like she hasn’t slept in awhile. She should be waking up anytime now.” the nurse stated
I slowly got up and changed into clothes that were laid out next to my bed. Seems Almond has been looking after me since being admitted. I slowly leaned in to listen to their conversation, curious to what their prognosis is. Almond seemed to just nod in acknowledgement of the nurse’s statements.
“Also, we’re going to keep her overnight a few days for a clinical observation. This is clearly a suicide attempt and we want to make sure she’s not clinically depressed and has the right mindset for her own health and safety.”
“Is that really necessary? I mean, I know I haven’t known her that long and she and I aren’t exactly close, but I don’t think she’s a threat to herself.” he inquired
“Mr. Cashew, I’m going to be frank. When someone tries to hurt their own life, there usually is more going on than what meets the eye. Now, since you are not family I can’t tell you any specific details. But, for Clementine’s best interest and the interest of others we are going to observe her behavior and hopefully have her open up to someone. Does that make sense?” the nurse reexplained
“I see. And yes, I understand. Just hard to believe her emotional state would be shaken to its core is all. Sorry for my disbelief.”
That’s when the nurse nodded in agreement to Almond’s words. Great, someone was here with me and I was going to be bombarded with questions. I’m still not prepared for everyone’s ambush. They’re going to mean well, but still. No one can know. Never. My story is so degrading and what if they don’t believe me? I let out a large sigh. That’s when Almond’s head snapped in my direction. Well, here goes Clementine.
“I didn’t realize you were awake.” he looked surprised
“Just enough to hear your conversation with the nurse.” I admitted
“Oh….you heard that?”
“Yeah, but its okay. I was going to eventually.”
“How are you feeling?” he half-smiled
“I’ve been better haha. I’m okay, just feel very weak.” I let out a small laugh
That’s when I stood up and Almond smiled. He must be glad that I’m okay. I’m not entirely sure how I feel about it yet. But, a small part of me is relieved to be breathing.
“How long have I been here?”
“Umm, just a little over twenty-four hours. They knocked you out so you could sleep and not wake up in a panic. Hope you don’t mind.”
I smiled and then looked down at the floor. How do you explain to someone you basically just did try to end your life? Not exactly a conversation starter….then again I wasn’t exactly expecting the next words to come out of Almond’s mouth.
” Clementine, why the berry would you try to end your own life?!” He shouted out of anger and misunderstanding
I started to frown and wince at his hurtful words. Who was he to judge my actions? He didn’t know one thing about my choice and thought pattern at the time. Who does he think he is to be the one looking from the outside in and to automatically judge and demand an answer. I didn’t like his tone on top of that. At this point, I wasn’t interesting in explaining myself to anyone. Even if that meant the usually nice and gentle Almond.
“You wouldn’t understand.” I whispered
That’s when Almond’s demeanor changed. Instead of his lips pouting out and body being tensed up, he sighed with defeat and frowned along with me.
“I may not understand. But, I want to. I want to know why the nicest and sweetest berry I know tried to submerge herself at the beach one rainy day.”
“Please Clementine, I don’t want these so called “professionals” deeming you as a clinically insane berry. I know you aren’t one. There has got to be a reason you tried to drown herself.” he pleaded
What? How does he know-
That’s when I realized it. He was the one I felt around me. Almond is the one who pulled me out of the water that day. He’s the one who admitted me to the hospital…..
That’s when I became embarrassed. I can’t believe he watched me submerge myself in the clear waters of the beach. I felt my body start to tense up. No wonder he was so interested. He actually saw the whole thing, didn’t just hear about it.
“Look, I can’t tell you Almond. I know that’s not what you want to hear, but I can’t.” I stuttered
“Are you sure? I’m no doctor, but talking about what is troubling you is better than keeping it in.” he looked concerned
I am truly grateful he’s this devoted to our friendship, but…
“Look. I know you’re being nice and as my friend you’re concerned, but I’m not ready and don’t want to tell you Almond.”
*sighs* “Okay Clementine. Do you want me to get you some water? “
I nodded. Turning away from him as the tears started to stream down my face. I couldn’t stand to face the horrible crime that was committed against me. I just want to forget about it. But, that’s when Almond turned right around and came up to be again.
“I tried to have Strawberry come see you, but she told me she doesn’t want to see you or talk to you. Did you guys have a fight? Is that why did it?” he interjected
“No. That’s not the reason. Can you please get me that water.” I sobbed
That’s when Almond was on his way out, and then again stopped midway. This time he didn’t turn around, he just turned his head to the side so I could hear him.
“I sure do hope you tell someone Clementine.”
While I was out getting Clementine’s water, I couldn’t help but shake the feeling that something terrible happened to her that lead her to take drastic measures. If she wasn’t going to speak to me, maybe she’d speak to Strawberry. The only problem is apparently they aren’t on speaking terms. I had to find a plan in which Strawberry would come down right away, so I thought I’d text her and just be blunt about Clementine’s situation.
Strawberry. Your best friend Clementine tried to commit suicide yesterday and is admitted in the hospital. She needs you. -Almond
I hated to be frank, but that was the only way Strawberry would even think about coming down.
“Aghh, who is it now?” she mumbled aloud
Strawberry. Your best friend Clementine tried to commit suicide yesterday and is admitted in the hospital. She needs you. -Almond
Strawberry’s eyes widened as she read the horrifying text. Clementine? Suicide?
“Oh my berry.” she covered her mouth in shock
Being in the hospital under surveillance is tiring. Especially when they think you’re going to injure yourself with anything sharp. Never thought I’d be treated like a criminal for dealing with the agony of being a victim. Almond was right. I need to talk about what happened. But, my mouth instantly shut when I think about his face. Its like he has his hands ready to force my lips shut and I’m imprisoned in my own misery. No matter how hard I try to forget, he keeps forcing his way back in.
During the midst of my self-loathing, my hospital room door slowly opened and a familiar face came peering around the oak door. It was Strawberry.
“Hi.” she said quick
I was a little surprised she was here considering we weren’t speaking to one another. But, then I remembered what Almond said. He hopes I confess my deepest secret to someone. Strawberry was the reinforcement. I wasn’t sure how to approach that, but I did have to talk to her and apologize about my behavior.
“Hi.” I whispered, as I slowly got up from the bed
I started to walk towards her, and when we were facing each other a silence fell upon the room. Definitely an awkward meeting between two friends. One just tried to kill herself and the other doesn’t know what to say to soothe that thought.
“How are you holding up?”
“Oh I’m alright, just weak. Oh, and they seem to think I’m clinically insane haha.” I chuckled at myself
“Haha, well glad you aren’t. At least I don’t think you are.” she laughed
“Look, Straw I need to apologize for my behavior a few weeks ago-“
“No, Clemmy. Don’t. You obviously had a lot on your mind and you just took it out on me. Its alright. Please you don’t explain yourself to me.”
“Okay…” I softly replied
“I just hope our fight didn’t lead to you to…..” she started
“What?! Oh no. No. That’s not why I umm…..did what I did. I promise.”
“Then why did you….do what you did?”
“I’m sorry Straw. I know we just cleared up the fight we had, but I can’t. I just can’t tell you the real reason. I want to, but no. ” I declined
“Are you sure Clemmy? You can trust me, you know that right?” she reassured
“I know I can, but I can’t trust myself. This isn’t something I easily admit. I want to tell you, but compelled not to.” I closed my eyes at the dreadful thought
Okay. That’s Part Two. I apologize for the length haha, I even didn’t use like four photos so its shortened some from what I originally thought 🙂 Hope you liked it, can’t say it measures up to Part One though. As I mentioned I’m more excited for Chapter Eight. Its a defining chapter, and I hope you guys like it too! 🙂